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I could never find the words so I disguised them in verse
Life is fluid and so unpredictable every down trembles at the notion of an up on the horizon. I guess my up had been a storm forming for some time and now that it's here I'm still just as indifferent, but that's just me ( Read more... ) -
Can't sleep
Ok, yeah. It's 7:35 a.m. and I ought to be sleeping but I can't. In an effort to do something constructive with my consciousness I decided to make an entry here ( Read more... ) -
Can you grow out of senseless hate?
Not long now. Tomorrow I'm taking the first of two required tests for graduation, it's quite exciting. Graduation feels like this big word, like the end of a road you've been driving on for way too long. This whole college gig has been great, but I'm done. I'm tired of being older than everyone, hanging out with drunk 19 year-olds isn't my idea of ( Read more... ) -
Many dreams come true and some have silver linings
I'm looking for answers and an end to the means now more than ever. I'm ready for it all to settle into place so I can make sense of it all. I know it always works out for me in the end, but I'm anxious and nervous. I had my own idea about how things were supposed to unfold, but you can't choose life, life chooses you ( Read more... ) -
When the music's over turn out the lights
Shit. I haven't been this nervous before a date in a long, long time. Wait, it's not exactly a date but this meeting between an awesome girl and I tonight is making me nervous. Having been in the position of taking a girl out many times before, this new feeling of discomfort is alarming to me. Maybe it was because she told me to plan the evening ( Read more... ) -
Wanted a woman never bargained for you
Lately, I've not had much to say. Things I thought could be solid are not so, but I found some new growth in an older friendship of mine, and it feels fitting. I try not to think about the future these days because it's so much more uncertain. I know where I'd like to be but I have to admit to myself that it's not as easy as I imagine it, and you ( Read more... ) -
Now I know my family isn't perfect
Unusually optimistic for me to think otherwise. I never wanted to believe that things were as bad as I thought they were with my brother. He's not a bad guy, he just needs to grow up, but I don't think he even cares to. It's like I left home and grew up to where he should be, but he never left and is still 18. I feel like it's created a big ( Read more... ) -
My eyes burn everybody that smokes
I've spent my break so far exactly how it should be spent. To anyone else, it may seem anti-climactic or dull, but it's been quite perfect. Well, I'm sure the break has been normal by any college student's standards. I wake up (12:30p.m. today, thanks) and then watch movies until my family gets home from work and then eat dinner. After a dinner ( Read more... ) -
I'm done
This semester is over. Tomorrow I turn in a couple of papers and it's complete. If only that were true. I need either some sort of internship or a Mass Comm Practicum (working on campus somewhere in my interest) in order to graduate next semester. I needed to talk to the person about this sooner. Damnit. I can only hope that things work out the ( Read more... ) -
Days are long. Nights are longer.
Something had to happen. I've gone too long without something going wrong. After a delightful discussion in Fiction Writing I walked down to my bike to make the short trek home. Upon arrival at my bike lock I put the key in to turn and it was stiff. I mean it wouldn't move a bit. It's been this way since the last good rain we had. I suppose it got ( Read more... )