Since I recently logged back into Livejournal it has given me the opportunity to reflect on the person I was when I started posting and the person that left off. I remember being in high school and this was the thing to do. At the time you needed an invite but I didn't know anyone. It wasn't long before Livejournal could just be joined freely ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've done one of these. I suppose I've been reflecting on the past and how it has changed me. Quite fun to chuckle at how weak and insecure I was. But it's also painful to be reminded of bad decisions, but we're supposed to make them, right? Yeah, whatever ( Read more... )

It seems my life is out of balance. I'm enjoying school but I can't quite manage to have everything else in the proper order and place that it should be. I kind of thought that I could file everything into a certain place and have my life organized. Of course that's just not possible ( Read more... )

Goodbye 2008. Many changes and most of them left me wondering if there was more to life ( Read more... )

Maybe it's just the seasonal change and the isolation that make me crave an revolutionary change of pace. Then again, it might just be Starter for 10 that makes me want to relocate to the UK when I graduate. I'm sure their need for mechanics is the same there as it is here ( Read more... )

I'm mostly patient willing to accept less than what I'd hoped for. I guess I've come to the end of my line with both of those. I don't have many friends but I like it that way. Though, the few I have irritate me in their own ways. What irritates me most is when I'm doing all the work in the friendship and getting nothing from it. In the past I just ( Read more... )

I think this stagnation is really getting to me. I have too much time to focus on how I want me to life to be, how I want it to turn out without it actually happening. I've been able to give too much thought to being alone and unemployed. This week I need to start figuring out where I'm going to start training for my A&P. I know I could move back ( Read more... )

In the past when I thought about growing up and being an adult I never anticipated it being such a struggle between maintaining youth and accepting a certain amount of conformity and sacrifice of individuality. It's not bad though, I know I could certainly be facing worse circumstances but I just figured that the future would turn out how I ( Read more... )

I'm losing motivational steam. What was supposed to be a great separation and vacation for me just discouraged and reminded me of my aimless wondering that I seem to have settled into this summer. Maybe my time there was just ruined by foolish bravery with cheap whiskey. Post-comatose in the morning I played pathetically with the band at practice ( Read more... )

I've got too much time on my hands to think and reflect. The best days of summer are those where there's a bright sunny morning that is swallowed by a grey cottony monster that then bathes the Earth in our own polluted filth. Yeah, I've thought about it some. I like the storms and the way the weather can change within a day the way life does ( Read more... )