y dont u all just leave me alone and let me rot and die.......not like anyone would care anyway. i just wished that someone was actually there for me insteade of just saying they were. i wished someone actually loved me instead of just saying thet did. i wish.......that my wishes could come true but thats not the case here.........nothing ever ( Read more... )

all i can do to take out my anger and stupidity is this live journal. it makes me feel better. over and over again i come begging back to u noeing that ur just going to get mad at me again. i try to make u happy but the harder i try to the mor u get angry with me. i fall for it. you tell me you love me but i noe ur lying. everything u tell me is a ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to say anymore. i dont know rather to feel bad or try to act happy. i think i could do both. no one is listening anymore. no one cares. i could yell in the middle of a group of people and be ignored like a ghost. this isnt the first time ive felt like this but there are certain variables that make it much worse this time ( Read more... )

i noe what love is. i feel it right now. the untrusting eye of the person i love disregards my feelings only because of the fact that i am not to be trusted. even though i have done nothing to disearn that persons trust i have none of it. i hate to have all the love in the world for someone and everyone noes it except for her. yet she pushes me ( Read more... )

it was only a matter of time. i told u it was going to happen again. and it hurts worse everytime. even though u never said much about it yet, i noe its coming. as i sit here crying and typing............i cant think of much. another restless night. in the morning u will probably ignore me. but u noe whats funny, u only get mad when i do NOTHING. ( Read more... )

i miss u. u left b4 we could settle this. i need u here. i am told everyday " damn man u are so miserable wit her" they ask me y i stay wit u. i love u.i may not be able to explain y i stay. but i wont leave for something so stupid as a series of fights. i want to be wit u forever. u may or may not belive me but as long as i noe its tru. u say i ( Read more... )

thats right.....i cant get u out of my mind. it hurt to hear some of the things u said today. i came to u. i went to ur house after school. u werent there. u said u werent going to be there but i went anyway. hoping that u would someone be there. maybe i could see u for a minute. but alas no one was home. ur mom pulled up so i gave her ur camera ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like there is a greater power. i try not to think about it but it haunts me in my dreams and in also in my frightful nightmares. i look up in the sky and see a whole galaxy of unexplored unexplained phenomenas. then i start to think to myself. are we meant to never explore more than what we can imagine. i want to see so many things ( Read more... )

i dont really noe how u feel right now. i really want to talk to u. i always want to be ur friend. u noe i will never stop loving u. i told u enough lol. call me later plz. dont forget. i need to talk to u. i want to noe how u feel. dont forget to call me.....the on thing i ask of u. or...is it ok if i call u. i want to noe how u feel because from ( Read more... )

after everything we have been through.....it over just like that......again and again. i didnt do anything. no one noes what im going through and u wont even help me or try to help me. but u just dont care about me. u get mad and it might be ok if u give me a reason but ur not giving me a reason. plz help me.....talk to me and help me get through ( Read more... )