three nights ago i said the longest most meaningful prayer of my life. ive really been such a fool. did i mean it all?! do i still mean it now!? reading old livejournal entries probably isn't going to cheer me up but i can't help myself.

hey livejournal ( Read more... )

I feel like no big change for me has been truly good. I have mixed feelings on everything...life, college, relationships. I've never been so happy because Alex is back in my life again. But for some reason I have no control over everything thats going on and that makes me sad. There's something thats missing and I don't know what it is. Or maybe ( Read more... )

Step one you say we need to talk ( Read more... )

ciao girl, spanking [party. CANT STAND TO BE SOMETHING IM NOT. nottheprettiestgirlintheroom. willyoustillovemethen?.I'm sorry for saying sorry, sorrier for being sorry. shaking_weak_you_you_chewy chocolate chunk cookies. its raining mud again.

everybody sit down.

I lie awake at night unable to let a good thought put me to rest. I guess I feel defeated by my own pessimism. This isn't my fault. I'm defeated by love.

Senior year is coming to a quick close, and I'm still not sure where I'm going to be for the next 4-6 years of my life. I'm sure there are many people in the same boat as me, and lets face it I think we're all experiencing a little anxiety over having such an uncertain future. Or maybe youre not, I don't know. Things have been going really well. ( Read more... )

I know I'm not perfect, but it still hurts to hear it from someone else.

I should have seen this coming.

Well I haven't touched this thing in awhile, which I suppose could be a good thing. But alas, all good things must come to an end, and I find myself absorbed in my own problems and comitting myself to a week of pure, unadultered anger. This school year I've hardly experienced anything worth being depressed about. Not that there's things that ( Read more... )