my mind is going crazy. i have such a headache.

today has been really hard in a lot of ways.

i might do my community service tomorrow but i don't know if i can mentally handle doing that right now because i am so on edge. im confused.

i hope tomorrow doesn't suck :[

bleck.

about to smoke a joint with shane. im excited.

hunger is such a great feeling!

i can't wait to start fasting again.

liquids, crackers, laxatives, occasionally stacker 2's, and maybe cereal.

dope dope dope, i can't wait.

as long as i consume <300 cals a day i can lose up to 5 lbs ( Read more... )

 friday i ended up getting sick and leaving nat's at 11. saturday i chilled with shane, he doesn't have a car anymore so now i have nothing to do and no way to hang out with shane. i feel bad for him. :[ bummer. parents suck ( Read more... )

 so my plan is

stop chiefin so much so i can:

work/get a job/save up for my fucking car, which will be dope as shit.

and do school.

i need to concentrate on making as much money as possible for the next month or two.

i haven't taken a shower since monday night. hahaha

i'm ready for a fun crazy weekend, which i probly wont remember. maybe i'll get a camera. hahahaha

chief.

twirling 'round with this familiar parabol,
spinning, weaving 'round each new experience.
recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this
chance to be alive and breathing

so i've been reading these books ( Read more... )

things to spend money on ( Read more... )

got my nails done and they look amazing

shane and i are chillin now :D

going to lenox mall on sunday with les, natalie and matt

chillin with all of them tomorrow and going to swayzes. yeah dude.

i'm never eating again.

i need something to replace food but i don't know what that could be.

uggh i just want to die. i'm so fat and disgusting.

get me out of this mother fucking house!

i couldn't even go to yoga today to be in a calm quiet place.

where the fuck can i go?