Sometimes I need a friend. Right now, I need a friend. I don't even need a friend, right now. I just need someone. Not even to listen. Not even to be here. Just to share a passing moment together. That makes things really hard because its such a tiny thing to ask for and yet I can't fucking find it. It's not anywhere. Not in my friend out in the ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamed that Koa and Maka got some sort of flesh eating disease on their front paws. What started out as blistering quickly turned to deterioration of flesh. I watched as soon enough their paws were all but gone. Slowly, the bacteria ate up their legs, forcing them to walk on the bloody nubs until it consumed them altogether, all the ( Read more... )

I don't know. Things aren't going well, I don't think. With the rock star. He needs to learn to just let things go. Open up. Go with the flow and roll with the punches. I can't do anything for him unless he wants me to. Its frustrating. I'll live.

Its my mother fucking birthday. And I am drinking alone in front of the computer. Yay me! Alcohol poisoning here we come.

Is it weird that now that I have absolutely nobody to talk to, I'm having a bit of a panic attack? Nothing major, I am just sitting here and I can feel that I am having trouble breathing. I feel a sense of dread and it's because I feel exceptionally alone. Rhianna's off to Washington for her grandfathers funeral. Ian isn't talking to me because we ( Read more... )

Well, its been a long fucking time since I've updated this thing. Just really haven't had the heart you know? Well, what to say... Just finally got out of a depression, it lasted about two weeks, but you know what? I'm feeling okay. Well, at least I'm feeling apathetic which is better than feeling HORRIBLE about it. Things aren't looking up, but ( Read more... )

I have come to realize that you are my closest companion. My own, livejournal is the closest thing I have to a best friend. As I moved to the bookmark to open the page, I realized this. Almost pitifully, actually. I feel as though I have no friends now. Sure, I talk to people, and these people would be horrified to learn of my death in any case, ( Read more... )

I'm writing to you because I can't really keep these feelings inside any longer. How the hell are you? Are you happy? That's all I want to know. If you're happy. I can't really say that I'm doing very well on this end. But I'll survive, I think. I've got a job, as Joel and Phil have probably told you. It's a pretty good job, it keeps my mind from ( Read more... )

I saw your brothers today. I was happy to see Joel, but Phil was with him. As much as I wanted to think, "Phil's Hot" all I was thinking about was you. The conversation went like this ( Read more... )

Well, I haven't updated in a while. ANyway... College. Yay. I like Proof and Logic. Actually, I don't mind all of my classes. They are pretty good. Uhhhhhm.... Work is good as well. My manager laughed when she heard I bitched out one of the new guys. So thats cool. I guess that means I'm allowed to. =P Aside from that, nothing else is new. Jamie ( Read more... )