I feel like cutting right now. Theres not very much stopping me, after all, I already did Cocaine this Saturday. Yeah, there I finally said it. I did Cocaine and got drunk, and drove halfway across the island tweaking the fuck out. I don't even care anymore. I actually felt bad, but I don't feel bad anymore. I don't even care. Everyone is full of ( Read more... )

I just needed to punch the wall. Yes, I feel better now, thanks for asking. I did all the dishes by hand and now my hands hurt from the dishwasher soap. The dishwasher was full and my dad was mad, so I just did them all by hand. And I know thats not even good enough. Oh well, kill me in my sleep.

Well, I'm fucking pissed. My dad has been bitching for weeks about how he hates me playing World of Warcraft on the home computer. Because it makes the computer slow. Right, because he had NO problems with it before, but suddenly Kylee starts doing a whole shitload of Photoshopping and NOW its making the computer slow. How peculiar. And so what did ( Read more... )

Well, I have secrets again. It's been so long since I had any, I was beginning to think I wasn't normal. I mean, before I had secrets and it made sense how much animosity I was receiving. But when I didn't, I was still getting just so much bullshit I didn't understand what I was doing wrong. What could I do better? I'm not even sure anymore. But I' ( Read more... )

Well... I saw Girl Jordan and Jordan today... It put me in a bad mood. Seeing Girl Jordan so frequently makes me realize that I'm not going to be seeing any of her pretty soon. 3 weeks left. And then she's gone. I'll have nobody here. I sent emily a congratulation today for graduating, and she said "thanks =)" and then I asked her if we were going ( Read more... )

Well, I actually woke up at 9:30 today. I went to bed at 1 am, so I definately had enough sleep. And when I awoke, I swore I thought it was like noon. But I checked the time and was shocked to see it was super early. Anyway, I had a new text message from Guillermo. All it said was "call me" so I was kinda confused, but I got up to call him anyway. ( Read more... )

Well, it's been a while since I've updated this thing. not that anybody is reading, I really don't want anybody reading this shit. Because, fuck, I don't think getting committed to a psych ward sounds all to entertaining. Well, maybe it is, but lets save that for when I barely have a shred of sanity left. And I haven't gotten there yet ( Read more... )

Why do I write such depressing posts in my livejournal? I guess its cause something needs to upset me before I get motivated enough to write here ( Read more... )

No need to comment my previous entry. I was drunk and don't remember it. K, thanks. =)

I wonder why alcohol has such a negative effect on the body. For me, it seems like I do very wel for a short amount of time, and then I justy get royally depressed.But abpot what? My life is not that bvad. It is not that bad. I have a good job. I have a loving family. I hacve a great dog, and I have great friends. But it seems a shtough the little ( Read more... )