Lasy nigt I was completely and totally lazy! I did nothing. That usually hapeens when I spend teh entire day and night before cleaning. So since I have to work tomorrow I have to get teh house straight for the week. Damn my parents are slobs and they don't do shit. Their excuse... Its my house and I am head of house hoild.. Blah. Ever heard of ( Read more... )

The analyst turned out to be crazy... and a liar. Got out to Del Mar and he flaked on teh concert saying he was too tired. Said he went to teh concert already on Thurs. Funny, he was on the phone with me that night when the concert was going on. So I am not speaking to him ever again. I called him out on his lies and wouldn't talk to me again ( Read more... )

So yay... the parents are moving out in 5 more days. Unfortunately I will have no bed or food they are taking everything with them. Blah. But that mean I can start getting teh house ready for day care again! Tomorrow I am going to see Bob Dylan in concert with my friend Derych. I am excited. He says he wants a relationship with me but he is a ( Read more... )

So tonight Eddie locked his keys in his car. I came to help and brought a hanger. It didn't work so I tried calling some friends for a slim jim. He got a hold of his roomate and wife and right after my friend Brian said he had a slim jim I could use. Well, his roommates wife HATES me. So he told me it was best if I leave before they showed up. I ( Read more... )

I have to laugh at the last posts that I wrote!! Wow I had forgotten that I had even posted about Eddie!! LOL!!! Its been going on THAT long!! Actually since December... Christmas break! WOW! I am amazed at how close we are and the fact that we both say that we hate to fight because its just too much on us. We both agree that it is heart wrenching ( Read more... )

So Serena was pissed that she had to watch Bodie while I worked at the church tonight. But her boyfriend stayed here the whole time. When his mom came to pick him up I tried to say hi and she was really cold towards me. She wa totoally sweet to her and it just makes me wonder if she has talked THAT much shit on me to have her hate me. Sad thing is ( Read more... )

My cell phone is off til next week and I had tried calling Eddie yesterday to see if he was coming over and no answer from him. Although he did leave a comment on my myspace. Well, I guess you can say that I was pleasantly surprised when my doorbell rang and it was him. He came over to tell me he went to Joe Stevensons martial arts studio. We have ( Read more... )

Yeah I am sick of being just that. I am totally completely and crazy in love with Eddie all I am am to him is a friend with benefits!! We are liek best friends and he told me all we will ever be is friends. But we act like a couple! So I date other guys and all they want is to fuck me and leave me. I am never good enough to date but always good ( Read more... )

So after all was said... in the middle of balling my eyes out... Eddie shows up. Calls and says he is at my front door. Teary eyed I confess everything to him. That man has saved my life so many times. He doesn't even know it. Thing is we are perfect together. And everyone at work has even said it. They tell me we should be together. BUt he doesn' ( Read more... )

I really have never been this depressed before in my life. The last 3 months has been a series of bad luck, loneliness, totoal financial instability and complete despair. I hav econtemplated suicid eto the point where I took a handful of my blood pressure meds afterr drinking half a bottle of vodka and lived. I wrote my suicide note weeks later ( Read more... )