so i got the answers i've been looking for for more than a year.. not necessarily the ones i wanted.. just the ones i've been looking for.. though i know i said a month ago that i was over him.. i had to know for sure.. we will have nothing more than a friendship in the future and it's time for me to move on for real this time.. it hurts.. knowing ( Read more... )

so.. my store manager walks up to me and says "come here.. i need to talk to you for a minute".. and i go sit down thinking i am in trouble for not coming in sunday.. but i'm not.. she asked me if i was interested in management.. i went to class monday.. and wednesday.. it's okay.. kinda like manager boot camp.. there are 6 of us from my store.. ( Read more... )

i'm sitting here with my beautiful baby girl.. i just did a search for katrina aftermath pictures.. i have a horrible earache in both ears and a busted lip.. but life is ok at the moment ( Read more... )

Memes are a way to get something in a journal without writing it yourself ( Read more... )

i've figured out it's time to let go.. so i sent him one last email.. i'll give him one last call.. and that's it.. i'm letting go of that cliff and moving on with my life.. i don't know anymore.. i have more important things to worry about..

"it's horrible that i can't see myself without you in my life.. it's like you're a part of me.. but somehow you're not.. i keep sitting around with you on my mind and the world spins around me.. life goes on.. what happens when it's all said and done.. and you're not there anymore? what then? a beautiful baby girl i would love for her to call you ' ( Read more... )

ok.. so wow.. things have changed.. i'm going to the hospital tomorrow so they can induce my labor.. yes, i said labor.. 4 days after my last entry.. meaning the day after christmas, my birthday, i came down with tonsilitis and went to the ER to get something done about it.. and i found out that i was pregnant.. casey, the assholic father, wants me ( Read more... )

i'm so pissed it's obvious.. i have to be at work in 5 hours.. i can't sleep.. casey got pissed last night because we were joking around and i laughed at a joke.. he grabbed me by the shirt and he'll be lucky to live past tomorrow..

wow! so much has changed in the past few months.. i don't even remember what was going on last time i updated.. AJ is in san diego, CA so.. blah.. i really miss him but i hate long distance relationships.. he knows that, but he still wants to be with me.. at least, i think he does.. he tried to call me the other day but i was at work so i didn't ( Read more... )

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