i know it has been a while since i have been on here.. i really only check to see how u, AJ are doing and to try to get in touch with you.. no one else really reads my shit and idk if u even do.. life has been crazy.. fighting for custody of my older daughter mylie and doing my best to take care of adrianna although sometimes i wonder if i'm doing ( Read more... )

i went home.. i'm back in killeen.. justin still remains a prick.. so.. life goes on!

so i'm not going home.. justin and i are renting a place a few miles from his mom's house.. we're going to be "roommates" and well.. maybe this could work out for both of us.. i've been hanging out with this guy brad a lot.. i don't see anything in it, but at least i'm making some friends here.. he introduced me to his buddy mike and we all hung ( Read more... )

so i guess the boo hooing about how much i want to go home is ending.. i'm going.. we leave thursday and arrive (hopefully) in MS on friday.. i'm ready to see my friends again.. and i think that for the rest of my time here in TX i will do exactly what justin is doing to me.. ignore him.. it's all i can do to start healing.. he's been giving me the ( Read more... )

we cried together last night after he calmed down.. i am still going home.. he "quit" on us.. he said he's not ready for a relationship and that later on down the road we will try again.. i don't know what to say to mylie when she starts saying "dada".. every time we got in an argument and i told her "no more daddy" she would look at me and cry.. ( Read more... )

so the saying goes.. from all mistakes comes a lesson.. well.. i think i'm going home soon.. though i don't want to.. i don't want to give up on this.. i don't want it to end this way.. he says i've been treating him like a five year old.. i think i just want to spend time with him.. this is killing me.. just when i thought everything was ok and ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of feeling like i can't trust him.. we got into a big fight last night and he left for like 2 hours.. said he was at his buddy chad's house.. well.. i get to cleaning our room today and was checking his pockets before i started laundry and found 2 condoms in the pocket of the shorts he wore last night.. i know.. more WTF right? so now ( Read more... )

You know those days when you want to be quiet but just don't know how? when everything is driving you absolutely crazy and you don't know why? well, the past week has been that way.. maybe it's because i'm in new surroundings and i don't yet know who to trust.. so far i know who not to trust.. the name.. Ashley.. this ho comes around talkin about ( Read more... )

Crystal and i hardly ever get to see each other anymore.. we're both so busy with work that it doesn't seem we have time to hang out like we used to.. i haven't talked to her in what seems like AGES.. she's my best friend.. i miss her.. we used to talk about everything and anything under the sun.. maybe i'll call her today and see when she's off..