Life is more beautiful then I give it credit for.

In all honesty lately I've been indescribable. I'm a little irked because I wish I could just get a good "fuck you" from Cory rather then silence (because I have this feeling that is what is coming, but instead of coming out and saying it he would rather not say anything, at all. I have a few theories concerning this, It may be his way of avoiding ( Read more... )

Today was a weird day. First off, my family is irking the fucking hell out of me. I think my blood pressure is through the roof right now. My dad is such a little baby. He honestly acts like a two year old sometimes, and they wonder why I'm so picky/neurotic. My family will not let me go, and furthermore they get angry at me for wanting to distance ( Read more... )

Jesus I feel like crap. I honestly don't remember if it was yesterday I had food, or the day before that. I do believe the last time I ate was the day before yesterday though, -_-. How does one lose track of days like that? I suppose I'll get over it, :P. I need to take a shower, and shaving my legs would be nice, though I'm tempted to attempt ( Read more... )

Wow, I just finished up Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, though I tried to make it last as long as I could. Sad to think it shall prolly be another two years or so before I shall get to read the next one, I wonder what kind of state my life shall be in then. I remember very clearly what life was like during the previous releases. At this ( Read more... )

*sigh* I don't know anymore. I keep getting these odd mood swings. I think it is were I try to improve my mood, then something will cross my mind and drag me back down again. It just kind of sucks. Kevin is no longer on the list of people I want to talk to, after the other night even if he did call again (which he may honestly not ever do ( Read more... )

*sobs* I have this really bad feeling right now. So yeah, I'm not in a pleasant mood. What is wrong in the world? I'm feeling jealous (randomly, for real no reason), depressed, and sobby (that isn't a word, but I'm crying). Wth is up? I just feel like there is something wrong, that I should be sad about..

Gah, I'm very sore. I started my new workout program thingie today, I was a little skeptical at first, but it is a really good little routine. It gets a little harder everyday, so I'm hoping this will be good for me. I've also been experimenting with purging lately. Not all the time, maybe just once a day if I eat something other then what I ( Read more... )

This journal has long been neglected. I'm trying to think of everything that has happened over the last two months. I've been lost on what to do about anything. I still occasionally worry over Kevin, though I am learning to deal with him hurting himself. There is nothing I can do, and he doesn't want me to be there for him, so what am I to do ( Read more... )

Again I find myself laying in the dark over analyzing the world around me. Even the things and people that make me cringe and cry are crossing my mind tonight. It seems all the people in my life (or almost all) have some sort of pain attached to them in my mind. With some people I simply feel foolish, and when I relive memories with them I want to ( Read more... )