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[tragicwaste]

I miss my grandmother.

Plain and simple.

This house feels so empty.

She was such a big part of my life. And that part is missing now.

So what do I fill it with? Drugs? Sex? Alcohol? No, nothing seems good enough. Nothing could ever fill that void.

Comments

[thepainofsanity]

I'm here for you when you need me.

How I relate

[thepainofsanity]

Wow. I couldn't have stated it better. I am sure they look upon us and are proud. You sound sweet and smart. The ACTUAL pain of sanity I feel is much more profound than that of any superficial crap they would have wanted us to induldge in. On with us. That is what she would have said. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Onwards and upwards... (she loved to quote). I miss her so much. But she is always with me. Spiritual or not (I am not particularly) they never left us. I don't think.

Firstly, I have no Fucking idea what I am doing at this site. Somehow I ended up here. I am glad I did.

My Granny was a brilliant scientist with visions beyond my comprehension. I want nothing more than to fill her shoes...I think we can all agree that will not happen. But I can make the right decisions. I always think before I speak, and think "What would Granny do/say right now?" and I go from there.

It is not foolproof, but I reckon it is better than nothing. Best of luck to you. Chin up!

Watto

[anonymous]

hey,
Im sorry to hear about your Grandmother,
hm, if you can, see if you can find out one crazy cause or adventure that your grandmothers had before...
sometimes its really cool to find of what your grandparents really stood for, and what they were willing to do when they were around this age...

smile that you knew her too, she sounds like she had a full life:)

breathe, your alive right now

Re: Watto

[anonymous]

You hit the nail on the head. Hope you are as happy as your Grandmother would want you to be. All the best.

[juliacarrillo]

I miss my grandmother too. I can't believe I let the time slip past me that I could be asking her about things. Learning all her recipes and I just let her go. She didn't even see me at the end. I was too sick to be there. I hope she understands what happened and knows she rules my thoughts almost all the time. If it weren't for her I wouldn't remember what it's like to have a Mom. Tell your grandmothers before they are gone what they mean to you.

I miss my gram too

[juliacarrillo]

I feel just like you about letting time slip away, I felt like my gram would always be there she was so tough. My Gramma and I could talk for hours about anything. She was always there for me when no one else was. I wish I had spent more time with her before she was gone, I was so busy working, and raising my kids and the rest of the stupid excuses. I feel so guilty and I don't know if that feeling will ever go away. When I would call or visit she'd always say why dont you call or visit your gramma more often, but she never held it against me and would say you are here now. I don't really know what to say but I miss my gramma.

you're so right

[juliacarrillo]

Unfortunately, by the time any of us get here, it's too late. My life's biggest regret will always be not asking my grandmother more questions about her life, what she did, and yes to get her recipes, too. I hope all of our Grandmothers have some kind of afterlife, and have internet access...Oh grams I miss you so much.

My grandmother just passed away, i miss her so much.

[anonymous]

She passed away yesterday, i dont know what to do, as im writing this tears are pouring from me, but i know shes better up there. She was sick her entire life, but she stayed strong. I love her more than any words can describe.

[anonymous]

I'm not sure how I ended up here, but sometimes I understand somewhat of how you feel