mind numbing silence is bad for the heart

[trainornator]

I feel so helpless. Nothing makes me happy. I pace around in my room, around in the kitchen. With blank thoughts. I don't even know what to think about anymore. My days are now filled with tears and agony while I put up a wall that tells people I'm doing well. For so long I searched and searched for something I could hold onto... I found that

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[ilikepoopy]

JOHNNY PLEEEEASE DON'YT BE SAD.

We all true niggas!

♥ India

[sadxregretxl3]

I LOVE YOU!!!! ♥

well..

[just_so_amanda]

Well i haven't known you that long..and in fact didn't talk to you much outside the internet.

But if you ever need someone , even just to talk to.. I will.

Hope things get better for you.. :(

-Amanda

[trainornator]

Thanks anyone for your support ♥ I never got to sleep until 7:30 this morning... I had the most horrible night ever it was a fucking nightmare no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get to sleep... My mind was on fire and my body just didn't want to stay still it was the wierdest thing ever and ofcourse laying there int he dark only gave me time to think and when I think alot it's not good. Alright peace nigs

[sadxregretxl3]

Know what Johnny... you've got alot going for you.

Some day, you are going to make a girl GENUINELY HAPPY like she's never felt before, you are such a great person... and like really, the things that I've heard you talk about in the romantic sense are truly amazing. You're also not that bad looking (but you're my dad so i'm gonna pretend i didn't say that) lol. SERIOUSLY JOHNNY you're so freaking cool yo. I mean really, but if you ever have doubts about that.. just talk to me I'm here for ya kid. cell's 377-8441 and u know the sn. bye dear ♥

[trainornator]

Awe... Well that makes me feel alot better =] Nobody ever compliments me because I hide my real self under a layer of retardedness to make people laugh lol so my more serious side isn't really seen by most. "You're also not that bad looking", Well gee thanks alot, atleast I'm not THAT bad looking... *rolls eyes* LOL I'm jk you bewb chill yo. Yeah... I can be this joker/retarded ass person, and I also have the extremely serious, sometimes sensitive side that's willing to do anything for someone I love. And I'm feeling a little better lately talking to some people and hearing a few things on here help a little bit. Thanks once again Sharie and everyone else that actually takes the time to say something in reply to my helpless post. That was one of the worst day and night I ever had seriously... I was going insane but whatever. Talk to you all later ♥

[sadxregretxl3]

WAS THAT YOU THAT LEFT THE LAWG!!!????

I WILL DO A DOA TEST!!!!

I CAN PUT IT IN MY REFRIGERIZOR!!!!

lmao... good times johnny 8-)

[trainornator]

LMAO!!! I have to go listen to it now son of a bitch >_< WHEN THE HELL ARE WE HANGING OUT NIGGA! lol Peace you asshole

[trainornator]

LMAO holy shit Sharie... I'm in class right now and I forgot about your reply copying willy the janitor and I read it and I just burst out laughing it was so hilarious cuz I wasn't expecting it. It was all quiet and shit too everyone was all serious.

*Willy* I KIN GO GET A DOA TESS... I GOT IT UP IN MA REFRIDGERIZAH I CAN GO GET A DOA TEST AND SEE WHO IT WAS

*Creepy white guy* Well make sure that's in plastic not pahapaherhahahaha... You might mistake it for your luhhhhnchahaha

*Willy* I don't think it's funneh... You don't wanna have to clean that up do ya? Somebody leave a big old, stinkity foot and a half long, paint peelin' compensizin big old dump...
Leave a big old dump in there all STINKY and NASTEH...

*White guy* I THINK IT'S HILARIOUS! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHGAHGAHAGAHGAhg

Oh man... That shits the greatest =D Alright piece out I can't keep laughing everyone thinks im insane. peace