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new year
same monotonous life
beautiful villain
murderous vice
belief deferred -
fucking therapist
Frustration
pulsating through
tense veins
wishing thinner
bones protruding
blood thickens
she threatens
can't be what I want
do what I want
fuck therapists
fuck everyone who judges -
The Ocean
When you wake what is it that you think of most ( Read more... ) -
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The longer I'm around the less I understand love. What I've gathered: if it is expressed publicly it is more important than when it is not, and it is wrong to feel love for someone when you are claimed by another, and basically I'm not good at any part of it. I hurt everyone around me because I cannot follow the rules. And I don't want to. My ( Read more... ) -
disintegration
I am under mind control ( Read more... ) -
remember
remember me
I was the girl you knew
the one you saved
with your creative intelligence
and warm hands
the one you sang to
with a broken guitar
the broken girl
who lost you -
day 2 by myself
silence swells and bursts
like a burn blister
brewing infection
canine snores
my only company
rhythmic dance of vibrating air
and me
dreaming in shades of grey
but the blood bleeds red
and I'm still alone -
day 1 by myself
alone
the thoughts creep in
the yearning for self-mutilation
something to take me away
burn the remnants
of who I used to be
or who I am -
Why am I awake?
Fucking awake again
tired and lonely in the time between days
every night the same routine
of pills that don't work
and a mind that won't stop
leaving me staring at a darkened room
waiting for light
