I don't want to lecture but...500 isn't enough, I know you know that :( Starvation will make you binge, it's like biological law. I totally understand how nervewracking it is to do the 'healthy' amount of food. This is coming from someone who lost over 2/3 of their body weight going from hugely obsese to near-dead by starvation, my metabolism is so whacked now. And hell while I'm spouting off the lecture here (sorry) I never did get happy by losing the weight. I know you're not some 13-year-old kid going 'I'll lose weight and get happy' but the same thought that I had when I started this crap at 12 still plays in my mind and it's what always screws me up. Now I was keeping down a 'healthy' number of calories a day + b/p before. Since I stopped b/p but am still eating the 'healthy' number, I've lost about 6lbs on the same amount of food. And I can see my stomach muscles again...they're not buried underneath bloat. Exercise is hard but so good for your body and spirits. I know how it is, though...easier said than done. It takes a while
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500 by lunch time was good considering i went out to dinner last night and had seafood and pasta. I know alllll about calories and nurtition and metabolism. My friend tells me it's ridiculous that i have bulimia because i could teach a class on how to lose weight with nutrition alone. lol
I lost 60 pounds last year in about 7 months. Very healthy didn't even care about the weight, just cared about being healthy. My obsession with being healthy is what led me to this place with my health now. My weight gain means a lot in the grand scheme of things. It makes me feel like a huge failure.
Sheesh, I read that all wrong...I thought you meant 500 total. I was like, oh dear! Sorry =/ I am glad that you said you know a lot about nutrition, because you can tell me - what are some good sources of protein/healthy energy? I made a long rambly post about it. I am clueless!
contrary to what it might sound like i actually really love taking care of myself and helping others do the same... i don't know why i rebel in such horrible ways, but i'd love to help you learn.
Healthy sources of protein come in many forms. You have your lean proteins - turkey meat, chicken, eggs whites. My favorite protein packed meal is an egg white omelet with chicken, spinach, and soy cheese!
Protein shakes (there are SO many really great tasting low cal low carb ones) whey and soy protein. there are many beans, nuts, and veggies that are good sources of protein as well.... chick peas, black beans, soy beans. I really love soy nuts (but they are not a nut) ahhaha If you want to talk nutrition i'd be more than happy to discuss. :)
I admire that you're trying to do this. I'm not brave enough to face reality without bulimia. I wish that wasn't true.
You know you will have ups and downs, but I hope you'll remember that if you have a bad day, you'll always have the next day and the next to look up to. :) Gooooood luck!
See... I am the opposite. I admire you for living and having a sense of reality with bulimia. My cycle has taken over my life. I am so depressed and i can't except it as a reality right now. the more i hate myself for this being my life the worse it gets. if i could just accept it a bit more, i feel like i might be able to recover. i don't know if that makes sense or not... probably not.
so, i know this is like a month late, but it was your last entry :) i just wanted to say hi and see how it's been going! i know what you mean though, my high was about 161 then i made it all the way down to 115, then i freakin went up to about 144 and the roller coaster continues. as terrified as i am of being fat, and as much as i feel like a failure for not maintaining, sometimes i just wish i was comfortable with myself regardless of my weight. it seems like such a stretch for me to ever know what that's like, but i would like it someday :) anyway, hope things are going well! take care.
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I lost 60 pounds last year in about 7 months. Very healthy didn't even care about the weight, just cared about being healthy. My obsession with being healthy is what led me to this place with my health now. My weight gain means a lot in the grand scheme of things. It makes me feel like a huge failure.
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contrary to what it might sound like i actually really love taking care of myself and helping others do the same... i don't know why i rebel in such horrible ways, but i'd love to help you learn.
Healthy sources of protein come in many forms. You have your lean proteins - turkey meat, chicken, eggs whites. My favorite protein packed meal is an egg white omelet with chicken, spinach, and soy cheese!
Protein shakes (there are SO many really great tasting low cal low carb ones) whey and soy protein. there are many beans, nuts, and veggies that are good sources of protein as well.... chick peas, black beans, soy beans. I really love soy nuts (but they are not a nut) ahhaha If you want to talk nutrition i'd be more than happy to discuss. :)
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You know you will have ups and downs, but I hope you'll remember that if you have a bad day, you'll always have the next day and the next to look up to. :) Gooooood luck!
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