i think i may be in the very early (and i mean VERY early) stages of a plan.
now it's a matter of staying focused, disciplined and not being so easily distracted. ha!

insomnia these last few weeks.. gkjdfl;gj

reading super old school livejournals from high school is pretty weird.

i'd actually care to write an entry, but mother and brother are now up for work / school and i just don't like writing when they're around. i need my sacred space, maaaaan.

ok, the epiphany came ( Read more... )

i've recently started posting again and the last two entries have been like, "OMGZ LOWELL IS LO-HELL, THIS CITY IS DEAD, BORING AND MOSTLY GHETTO ( Read more... )

lowell isn't that bad ( Read more... )

this place is so fucking boring that it's almost painful. i'm sorry, but coming back here from living in boston for 5 years is not an easy adjustment. it was ok in the beginning, i enjoyed a solace tuesday here. sometimes a sunday, whatever. but now it's just overwhelmingly bland since i cut down my hours at the shop in beacon hill, i tend to ( Read more... )

the subject refletcts my stance on 2006 overall ( Read more... )

i am better than this. i know i can do better than this. i keep dwelling on the idea that i'm only a few months shy of being 22 and i'm not where i want to be overall, on a lot of fronts. mostly the front where i'm a cashier at a fucking "specialty" grocery store (that pays me well alas) and i know there are plenty of others at my store much older ( Read more... )

i decided on a few things in the last day or two ( Read more... )

ahh!