i love school and my life but man i sure as fuck do hate being busy all the time.
seriously, its like the money never pools up anymore. its either i've got some
or i'm broke as joke. eating once a day isnt healthy but its all i can afford.
and i literally have to pick who i'm going to hang out with day by day.
there's just not enough time for me to be ( Read more... )

i will not become one of those sparkling, vivacious young people (male or female) filled with aspirations and beautiful ideas, who allows the pressure of shit like marriage, kids, gained weight and age get in their way. that stuff is important but the things i want are much more important and now is the only time i have to achieve those things ( Read more... )

i just want your big, hard words.

when am i ever going to really want to like a person for who they really are and not worry desperately that one of us will change our minds and it's all kind of pointless. but the worst part of this whole thought process is the sickness i feel towards myself for even being so juvenile to fret over relationships...and shit like that.

and a certain ( Read more... )

"Rejection is so scary- it's all the rain and oil of the world, mixing together to peel our skins off, one by one, seven eight nine, until we slip out of our skulls like tongues out of seashells, tangling within your ear and forever imprinting the music box melodies that make you taste rejection, hear it chiming and twirling, feel it taking its ( Read more... )

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life...why do you have to be so intricate and mind-boggling?
i want people to be happy again. i feel like the older we get, the less positivity and hope i find in people.
i need a savior. i need heavy, industrial-sized loss.

i've got no one to answer to, but for some reason i won't accept my apology.
wtf, self?

i no longer have pity for anyone.
weird.

oh glorious, wonderful, happy day of finally legally drinking. i hope your first margarita was sweeter than any of the others you've unlawfully consumed. i love you and wish i could be there to spend sometime with you, i can't but i send my heart and thoughts in your direction. btw, my mom got some old camera film developed and in it was a picture ( Read more... )