So christmas wasn't as bad as i was expecting it to be. I went to mommys house on the 24th, and it was just us, which was a relief. Just me, mandy, tia, mom and bruce. casey had to work. snacks, fun swears, and the tradional hiding of my little sister tia's teddy bear, Lemon. wonder if she found it yet ( Read more... )

First Name ( Read more... )

i miss sleep. i need it badly. but ever since the "incident", i'm terrified of sleeping pills. can you believe it? Maria, scared of a pill? the world is crashing down around us. well, me.

i'm gonna be that girl that posts the lyrics to an entire song. you don't have to read it, i don't care. but i need to look back on this and remember how i was feeling today ( Read more... )

fuck you fuck you motherfucker 2009. i will never forgive you. Another friend was taken away from us. He was also CPHS alum, and we had some great times in high school, and after ( Read more... )

John Lennon/Plastic Ono Bands "Mother" is just killing me. i had totally forgotten about that song forever, then Imagine was on VH1 classic and it showed John playing it live...and oh man...i'm so glad for therapists. issues? you bet.

 ok i gotta get this shit out.  i'm in a rut.  i'm in something deep.  i dont know what it is, but i'm in it.
obviously i'm hiding, and have been for awhile. 
i don;t know if its been my depression, my anxiety, my personality, or what, but this is the first time i'm going through whatever this is, so it's new.  and scary.  and strange.
about a month ( Read more... )

 i cant wait for this year to be over.  09, yr dead to me.

what started out as a wonderful day, quickly turned to the worst when casey called me with the news.  Michael Jacksons death is so heavy on me that i don't even know what to say.  as MILLIONS of people can agree, he was the soundtrack to my life ( Read more... )

i just got back from getting my scooter out of the "hospital".  what an unpleasant experience ( Read more... )