This may have a curse word in it.

[trbodsl82]

I seriously can't fucking take this anymore. I can't take my fucking job, I can't take my fucking cat, I can't take my fucking dogs, I can't take my fucking car, and I sure as hell can't take whatever life is doing right now. I am so fucking confused on what I am supposed to do, who I am supposed to be, what I am supposed to be fucking looking for

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[aly_petch]

so, i love you...not to be a theological jerk...but...just ask Him what He wants you to be...and well, maybe He wants you to be where you are right now...so...just ask Him why...I'm pretty sure that He won't refuse you.

[trbodsl82]

I HAVE asked... i dont understand what He wants! It's so hard feeling like I'm talking to air. :o( I'm not even sure He wants to hear from me, we haven't really spoken in a while... meaning, I haven't attended church. . . -JB

[buddha17]

Josh, you're an amazing personality, and I second Aly's "I love you" as well. Despite all the crap you've probably had to endure, I think one of the most remarkable things about you is that you maintained your own personality and did not yield to the frustrations of your life. I went through a lot of the same shit that I think you're facing right now, but I think I figured out my destiny. Sit down for a good afternoon, formulate a vision of how much better society can be in the future, and think about what role you want to play towards getting us there. That really helped me sort out the mess I was in and put all of this back into perspective for me. And, like I always try to say, if you need someone to talk to or just vent to, I'm a mere phone call away.

[trbodsl82]

woah to me. jk. Life is so insane... it's... ugh.. just crap. But I had a really bad night that night, and I spent all morning (until 3AM) talking to a couple friends, and then another friend kept me awake until 4 talking. I ALSO had to be at work at 5. .. but whatever, no sleep never hurt anyone. Thanks for the love, I appreciate it. -JB

[mac_berry]

Whoa bro...we need to go hang out, seriously...I know you're upset and I can somewhat relate to how you must be feeling. I just want you to know I'm always here for you so don't be shy about giving me a call. You are a good friend & I hate seeing that you're having such a bad time...I know you've been praying for me and all my problems, and I just want you to know I've been doing the same for you...So if you need something or just someone to talk to, call me...

[trbodsl82]

I'm not shy... I'm just embarrassed that I can't handle life like I used to. Obviously, it's got a lot tougher.. but you know what I mean. I never used to be this stressed... I never used to just not eat for days, or not sleep.. I just hate when things get to be. I used to be so .. HAPPY. I don't want to be freaky happy.. I just want to have that mild high on life, like "old days." But yeah, our prayers are working... at least I hope. We'll see it go down Monday. Lord, I pray for you like it's my job. lol jk -JB (thanks.. .a lot, too :) )

[piglette3]

Might sound kinda' cliche', but that's been my "theme" lately - That God made people so He could have a relationship with them. He made us to need Him (like the song says - "there's a God-shaped hole in all of us" lol) That's it. He gets glory when we have a fulfilling, joyful relationship with Him. Btw, this happens outside church, although church can help ;)

[trbodsl82]

I love your spiritual comments. They really hit the spot. Thanks as usual, Kim. You're a wonderful creation of God... and I will thank Him for that! -JB

[piglette3]

Aww, thanks Josh :) That's one of the nicest things a person's ever said to me :) Hope you're feeling much better!