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09-10-11
Tuesday was Dad's clean day. This year, it would have marked 5 years clean for him.
I think about him everyday. I always wonder in the back of my mind the extent of my unresolved feelings towards him, the circumstances of his death, and my role in this as his only son. It's no secret that coping with a father's death has a profound effect on a ( Read more... ) -
A long overdue life update - moved to Columbus, OH
Bonjour/hi, LiveJournal.
It's become a ritual as of late to lament about how long it's been since our last time together, so I'll simply acknowledge that fact in this opening statement. So there.
A lot has happened since we've last spoken.
I moved to Columbus in mid-November to start my first job. I work for American Electric Power (AEP) in their ( Read more... ) -
Election Day!
I have to admit that returning to the United States in the midst of this whole big election was rather exciting. Seeing all the lawn signs, the bumper stickers, the tee-shirts, etc. Nothing screams "AMERICA!" louder than the red, white, and blue stickers and signs everywhere, the dramatic voiceovers and cheesy music of campaign ads, etc. Now, ( Read more... ) -
Block
It seems that I have a tendency to seriously underestimate the emotional undercurrents that I can unknowingly induce in other people ( Read more... ) -
Montreal -> Milford -> Columbus
This journal has been long overdue for an update.
I moved out of Montreal at the end of August. I've lived with Aunt Gail here down in lower Connecticut for the past 7 weeks or so, while applying for jobs and finishing thesis revisions. My funds completely exhausted, I've been living on the kind generosity of my aunt, along with a pretty frugal/ ( Read more... ) -
Delusions
Dear LiveJournal,
My apologies for neglecting you. The neglect for you is analogous to the neglect I've shown in many aspects of my life. The weird truth is that I haven't neglected you simply out of forgetfulness or lack of interest. In fact, the reason I've neglected you is shame - and the fear of having to confront this shame.
Over time, I've ( Read more... ) -
A story about not killing yourself
I started to write a fictional story. Here's the first chapter (maybe) - completely raw. Hasn't been edited yet. Inspired by my own life and perhaps by a myriad of bunches of other things that I don't understand.
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Another chapter?
I can feel myself drawing to this ambiguous (yet quickly approaching) ending to a chapter without a distinct ending. I'm clinging onto this chapter that I do not yet want to end, yet the weight of the turning page is steadily becoming too much to bear holding onto for much longer.
I finished writing my thesis!
Now, I await the bureaucratic and ( Read more... ) -
Anti-oppression/politics
At what point does one's worldview on "anti-oppression" become oppressive? How many people do you have to alienate just to try to prove to people how it feels to be alienated? This abstract notion of anti-oppression has become less about valuing the unique blessings of each individual than it has become a pulpit from which to claim and from which ( Read more... )
