You were just blessed. You had a Christmas where nobody yelled at anyone, and better yet, you had extended family over for the first time ever when your dad wasn't in Kuwait. It was blissful and dysfunctional. You don't want to ever forget it. Suzanne annoyed the hell out of you, and mom made everyone play cranium against their will. Dad insisted ( Read more... )

Meredith and I visited UPC's college group last tuesday night. There was lightening outside and the preacher kept saying things like "I hope I am not going to deep for you guys, am I?" And Meredith said "Your just skipping rocks, not even skimming the surface" and I knew exactly what she meant. We sat there, bored by the sermon and irritated by the ( Read more... )

Yeah, so my purse is still missing and I am trying not to freak out and I just took a four hour nap and then ate a bag of cheese puffs. I am feeling low and emotional, I keep calling Meredith but her dad won't let me talk to her and I am thinking that an anti-fuck-wit demononstration is in order.

I am holed up in my room and can't sleep and I don't want to ever leave my room, ever. No one can come in here except for Heidi, Meredith and Kaela. And I am so damn grateful for my dorm room, because there is this thing with numbers and buttons on my door and only Heidi and I know how to get in here. I hate Mariah Carey, and I am listening to her ( Read more... )

Mood: Val-happy ( Read more... )

Mood: Val-happy ( Read more... )

Mood: Val-happy ( Read more... )

"People" talk and say pretty things about the "place between wakefulness and dreams," like "maybe I'll meet you there" and so on. I am there right now and its not pretty, I hate saltines and I hate cheerios and I choked it down for dinner and cemented it with chammomile tea and I am pretending not to notice my stomach's persistent efforts to throw ( Read more... )

Julianna: Question for you...
Audience: What Julianna?
Julianna: Have you ever been so drunk of your anger towards someone that possibly you loved them just to spite yourself?

am incapable of functioning the last few weeks, it would be easier if i could point the finger at something or someone for my scapegoat but there isn't anything or anyone to point at and I know its all me its sunny outside and the retarded people are starting to wear their sunglasses indoors again iwant to curl up in bed and cry to lars von trier ( Read more... )