fuck man, I feel so fucked.And I swear this font has changed ( Read more... )

im going to be sick

i cant believe how bad i feel
how sickened with human life
how disgusted
and how i cant even stand upand go home coz its made me feel that ill
and i cant cope with stuff that well right nw coz i feel so emotionally sick

feeling emotionaly achey today.
cant talk about it and dont want to.
want to cut.

and so today I wander alone and lost in a world where I feel totally and utterly irrelevant. I sat in the canteen, in the middle of the dining area, on the biggest table, alone- smoking, listening to Philip Glass and trying to bite back the pathetic tears. Everyone around me - tutors, students, other staff, all were talking and laughing and there I ( Read more... )

ahhhh who saw that derren browns seance last night?
dinna that rule.
i got so much arty stuff to do and actually i cant be arsed to update. lol
it sucks.
im fed up of ebing in the editing suite, i hate computers, cant do it and my video rules just not work right atm, fuck that.

apart from no longer able to sleep anymore ( Read more... )

Eee i have a new hair do, it so so rules ( Read more... )

baby this pain aint gonna stop ( Read more... )

Message from: BEAKER Date: 28 Apr 04 at 13:07 ( Read more... )

I'm researching it again. I wrote a large(ish) story about it a few years ago, when i first found out about it when we visited Sutherland ( Read more... )