So...I knew I would end up missing him even though, I kept telling myself that I shouldn't get my hopes up because he lives so far away. This is just another reason I have to leave this state. I admit that i'm scared of leaving. I know I need to. I know that once I actually did and made it, I would be extremely proud of myself. I need his words to ( Read more... )

Testing

I could have married him...correction...I would have married him if it had gotten that far...or serious. He was perfect. We were perfect. I felt oh so comfortable with him. He made me laugh, he made me smile and feel pretty and smart. He supported all my ideas and dreams. He held on to me like he never wanted me to leave. It's been way too long ( Read more... )

I *hate* backstabbing people. I guess in the end she will get what is coming to her, but I just can't help feeling like she was planning this whole thing. I'm not going to back down, I know she wants me to quit. I'm not giving her the satisfaction though. I'm going to fight and hold my ground and beat her at her own game.

Today is my birthday. I turned 25. I always thought it would be different. I thought I would feel more accomplished or something. I thought I would feel more sad. I think it's more disturbing to feel nothing. I wasn't happy, sad, accomplished, angry, nostalgic, grateful... it just seemed like another day. Another day that i'm letting pass by. It ( Read more... )

...start spreading the news....I'm leaving today... I want to be a part of it....

I hate summer/spring...whatever. It's hot and i'm sick. Plus, my schedule gets all messed up. bleh. On the upside...I get to see NIN and Jane's addiction soon....I think that's the only good thing lately. Hopefully that will change too. Everything should get better by the end of the summer. :)

It's weird that i'm feeling this way lately...I usually don't mind being alone...I always kept myself pretty occupied, but I can't seem to shake the loneliness...I just need to get out of this place for awhile...

I hate when I get stuck in these boring ruts ( Read more... )

Coffee & Cigarettes (Michelle Featherstone ( Read more... )