Well, Kim and I talked, it's official.. I have feelings for Rickey.. only. He's such a great guy and what a kisser *giggles* well, this is so new, i mean, he said he loves me! It's only been a day since the whole Kimberley thing but I think it was lust not love. Rickey is love. He's amazing. I think I'm going to go try to find him.

I talked to Carmen yesterday, poor girl is crushed. I mean, she has a reason to be but its just so sad... I haven't talked to Kimberley or Rickey since either insident happened but I really think I need to talk to both.. Ruben is being such a sweetie and Ryan is nowhere to be found. I wasn't voted off, thank god, so I have at least one more week. I ( Read more... )

I think I kissed Rickey. And I think I liked it. Oh god. Why is this all happening. I was perfectly fine hiding my feelings from Kimberley, not getting too close to anyone and not talking about feelings once-so-ever. Now, I find myself kissing Rickey (he told me that he loved me), Kimberley and Kim! I don't know what's come over me. Rickey was ( Read more... )

Oh man. Rickey said he may have a thing for me but he also said he needed to talk to me later so I don't know what to think about that. I can't stop thinking about Kimberley and that sweet-tender-memorable kiss. It was incredible. I love her more every second. I want her. I need her. It's not lust, it's love. I'm sure of that. Kim Caldwell knows ( Read more... )

Well, tonight has been very interesting. First, I met with Kimberley and I told her how I felt about her (still not sure how things went, very confusing..) then I went over to Ryan's to help him pick out an outfit to wear tonight (Clay and Ryan are so cute together), Then I finally met up with Ruben (man, I missed that boy!) Then I saw Kim C. and ( Read more... )

Well, Clay is in a bad situation. Yes, he does have two guys who care about him but he doesn't know what to do. I hope he's okay and if he needs to talk to me I'm always here for him. I have feelings for someone but I don't wanna say anything yet. I'll see how things go. Ryan needed help picking out clothes for his date and I offered but never ( Read more... )