Well, I had a good time with Rickey the other day. I saw him alone on the patio so I went to hang out with him and we had a blast... I didn't expect him to be ready but I am very happy he was... I thought he was shy but he's not, he's crazy and sexy as hell... I can't even explain how good of a kisser or how good he was to me... I'm happy that I ( Read more... )

Oh boy. I did it. I fell in love with Rickey, but could I really help it? He's the best thing that ever happened to me. He's beautiful, sweet, caring, loving, sexy and talented.. My god, he's perfect. Absolutely flawless. Well, I'm thinking that Rickey, Ruben and I are going to be hanging out a lot. *laughs* We're like the "three amigos" Oh well, ( Read more... )

I don't know. I am in a weird mood right now. I feel like I'm the outcast out of the group. I mean, I have Ruben and Rickey.. That's about it. I know that Clay hates me, but I don't know why... I try to be nice but I guess I'm just not a good enough person... Josh and I are friends but we aren't too close... I seriously wonder why Rickey picked me ( Read more... )

I've been so completely wrapped up in the whole process I actually missed Carmen's birthday! I feel so horrible! I heard that Clay asked her out so I don't think she cares that I didn't remember... I'm very confused about Clay right now.. Is he gay or straight? Oh well, he'll figure it out.. The judges liked my performance and I'm still here but ( Read more... )

Last night.. What can I say? It was perfect. Rickey is incredible, I've never met someone like him, he just amazes me and *giggles* what a kisser. The only disapointment was that his mom called in the middle but we'll pick up where we left off later ( Read more... )

Well, I am bored. The house is deserted once again and I feel kind of alone. I'm begining to miss everyone back home, a lot.. I'm grateful that I have Rickey and the others here with me though. I haven't been to rehearsal today and I don't know how my performance is going to be even though I'm pretty confident..

I found that pretty interesting ( Read more... )

Well, I picked my song. For country/rock week I will be singing "I Need You" I always pick songs that remind me of something or mean something to me so since I need Rickey it seems fitting. He's so sweet, funny, talented, perfect. *sigh* Anyways ( Read more... )

well, I wonder what Rickey will say about this.. *laugh*

Well, I technically have 4 different ways of using my name so I used all of them...

metal band!?

hm, acting.. *thinks* maybe a musical??

*shocked*

*sniff* Rickey, am I ugly?

Well, it turns out Ryan didn't wear the pink shirt, oh well, it looked cute and it went well with his color but the coral shirt looked cool too, it's up to him anyways... I think, well I know, I have very strong feelings for Rickey and it may be love. Right now I'm not too sure though. All I know is that I wanna be with him ( Read more... )