Continuing feeling and other assorted emotions at http://ddeadserious.blogspot.com/

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your debt's escalating ( Read more... )

So fucking fed up.
Get the fuck out.
Grow the fuck up.

I'm beginning to wonder if I'm as good at forgiving as I am sweeping things under the rug.

Or are those two things one in the same?

Just feel like giving up.

I'm choosing hope over hate.

Hope for a better future rather than hate for a dark past.

 Ecclesiastes 7:9
"Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools."

Ephesians 4:32
"And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you."

People can change. My forgiveness will reflect that.

I'm fucking tired of going to sleep in a decent mood and waking up feeling shit. Fuck midnights, so glad I start days on Tuesday. Fuck this weekend, I have four days off and plans for only one. Fuck.

This is just not getting any easier. I keep telling myself that I'm letting go, that I have to, to keep myself afloat. Turns out, I keep lying to myself. I keep saying "she's gone, and she's not coming back", but I know in my heart that we could fix it. That we could be perfect. I spent all night last night beating myself up for not being good ( Read more... )

Nobody understands, I simply have nobody to talk to, who understands the way I feel right now. I have not smiled a real smile in the past 4 days and my face hurts. I have not slept more than 4 hours at a single time. The second I wake up, the gears in my head start rolling and all I can think about is you. I tell myself that you hurt me and I ( Read more... )