Its 2 am I've spent the last 7 hrs talking to my best friend. he owns.(and btw fuckface I do NOT resemble quasimodo,bastard) I'm not going to whine about my problems we all have them. pick yourself up, take the time to take in something beautiful each day, and remember something cherished someone told you, or gave you, or did for you that's gone

It's odd I just said goodbye to him a few weeks ago, but it was an I'll see you again let's keep in touch sort of thing not a, god what kind of flowers should I put on his grave goodbye. A lot has changed in 3 months a lot of things I wanted to change, like Eric being single, woo! A lot I didn't want to change namely myself. well actually I did ( Read more... )

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i want to swallow your soul. take you inside myself. envelope you in my darkness. are you scared? you should be. i can twist anything beautiful into something macabre..my lovely gift of sadism..i fear for the things i don't know and the chance that me...i am not what i should be for you.

'twas all a lie.

manana i will be an old,shriveled up hag! wo0! nah i'll be 25 -makes jerk off motion- Mica gave me a necklace I love..god gay men have great taste in jewelry! it's opal and white gols..perfecto...and cheap..i hate people spending money on me. and before i forget..i've missed u two muchly!!!!anyhoo must go.....

If confusion was a river,then it would be I,who sits adrift upon it. In a leaky row boat no less..she one oar, he the other..and it seeems as if upon this river only one oar is allowed. How is this possibly a woman in a sinking boat..with one oar..how would i survive? simply stated i would not i'd sink..and quite possibly drown..in this river ( Read more... )

I love her...I make her unhappy...I hate it...I dont want her to ever be unhappy..I'm glad we talked..we needed to..I feel as if i ask too much of her..to be there..to love me..to want me..but am too weak to let her go. She is my favorite addiction..but who am i to ask her to want me? ugh@ every stupid smashing pumpkins song making me think of her ( Read more... )

I wish i had pictures of me smiling. I feel happy all of a sudden after crying all night..i am so bizarre..chemical imbalance i think ( Read more... )

im not as strong as i seem mel..i'm not any of the things i should be..I feel you on the it sucks to see how truly alone you are when you do get away from this thing and go out and do things..and the pining and longing you have rips you apart..i'm fucking crying how pathetic is that? I used to be happy ( Read more... )