I want to scream… and scream… and scream. I want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. I'm detoxing… everything… licit and illicit. I need to do this, but it is a roller-coaster. I and awash with ups and downs right now… if I make it, I will star up the meds on Monday. I need them too. I wish I didn't… but I do.

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I want my piece of mind back ( Read more... )

Ok... I suppose this shouldn't have surprised me... but, when talking with some people close to me about my best friend's difficulties I got comments back to the effect of "now is not your chance to try to slip in" or jokes about it being my chance.

>.<

This is not where my head is at... and won't be in the foreseeable future...

"That's it. I'm done... I'm just done ( Read more... )

Catch me, I’m falling… or is it that I’ve already fallen ( Read more... )

I guess that this journal has become for me a place to vent and whine and cry and let out those emotions and thoughts that I don't feel safe unleashing anywhere else... and as such, back I am ( Read more... )

Working in a library you get the damnedest things donated...  I'd long ago gotten used to moldy, water damaged books and similar.  I've even had a guy, with some obvious mental issues, mind you, attempt to donate his porn video collection...  still...  It really throws me when things are donated that have no remote relation to what is done in a ( Read more... )

Ok... I know the stress is getting to me.

School is not going how I like, though it is my fault that I've had problems. I'm working to fix it as best I can... I'm trying to kreep a clear head about it. The only good that comes of the fog is oblivion... unfortunately, the world keeps turning and you get left behind while in a fog. I'm getting too ( Read more... )

I suppose with that post last night, an update is in order ( Read more... )

I'm feeling lonely tonight... my chest is aching and I am sad ( Read more... )