seriously tho, you gotta let people know how you're feeling, if they really dont care they're treating you that way, time to make some new friends, those arent worth your time or care...
When it comes to people I'm pretty open about how I feel about them. However, I have a tendency to shut my mouth when they do things that make me feel like shit because I think it's just me being stupid or paranoid. Unless it's obvious that their being dicks to me. lol.
People should know where they stand with me. I never know where I stand with anyone, though, so I'm making an attempt at it right now.
yea when my friends are bastards to me i bottle it up and never tell them... bad habit, but by the time i have the balls to tell them i have so much rage it comes out like "YOU DUMB CUNT FUCK YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU EVER WERE. I WILL CRUSH YOU LIKE A FUCKING DRIED LEAF YOU PIECE OF ..." well you get the point... so i just dont say anything, i just... back away...
"I've felt like nothing but a tagalong or an afterthought for the longest damn time"
I'm not starting anything, I'm just saying that that's how I felt everyday when I lived on the Point. When I was around all of you. So many of the people we hung out with wouldn't even talk to me. Shitloads... Almost none of the boys, Keaton sometimes, but he could be a real asshole to me too. I was always in the shadow. You, Amber, Rosie, Lizzy, and everyone else seemed to get along so well. And I tried to be like you guys, be anything I thought people would talk to me if I was. I just hit a wall. Then I moved. Faded for a year. Met Kim and everyone, and started trying to find myself. Now I'm here. My life's a little fucked up, but I have people who I know care for me, and not cause I tried to make them, just cause they liked who I am.
I was always an afterthought in the states. Or I was only invited to things out of sympathy.
And trust me, back when you were here, you weren't alone. That's how pretty much everyone was. That group... too many people, and not enough of us liked each other, y'know? I dunno.
I love you, Alicia, and I miss you. With all my friends... I'm the one who has to make plans. I never get invited anywhere, I have to ask to come along... and it's just like, fuck. Makes you feel... unwanted. I don't just mean Vancouver kids either... I mean EVERYONE. I never said anything until now, because I felt like it was just me being stupid. But I'm so lonely all the time, and Beckiy removing me from her friends list for seemingly no reason made me... snap.
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seriously tho, you gotta let people know how you're feeling, if they really dont care they're treating you that way, time to make some new friends, those arent worth your time or care...
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When it comes to people I'm pretty open about how I feel about them. However, I have a tendency to shut my mouth when they do things that make me feel like shit because I think it's just me being stupid or paranoid. Unless it's obvious that their being dicks to me. lol.
People should know where they stand with me. I never know where I stand with anyone, though, so I'm making an attempt at it right now.
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so yea, better to get your feelings out early...
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I'm not starting anything, I'm just saying that that's how I felt everyday when I lived on the Point. When I was around all of you. So many of the people we hung out with wouldn't even talk to me. Shitloads...
Almost none of the boys, Keaton sometimes, but he could be a real asshole to me too.
I was always in the shadow. You, Amber, Rosie, Lizzy, and everyone else seemed to get along so well. And I tried to be like you guys, be anything I thought people would talk to me if I was.
I just hit a wall.
Then I moved. Faded for a year. Met Kim and everyone, and started trying to find myself. Now I'm here. My life's a little fucked up, but I have people who I know care for me, and not cause I tried to make them, just cause they liked who I am.
I was always an afterthought in the states. Or I was only invited to things out of sympathy.
but yeah...
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And trust me, back when you were here, you weren't alone. That's how pretty much everyone was. That group... too many people, and not enough of us liked each other, y'know? I dunno.
I love you, Alicia, and I miss you. With all my friends... I'm the one who has to make plans. I never get invited anywhere, I have to ask to come along... and it's just like, fuck. Makes you feel... unwanted. I don't just mean Vancouver kids either... I mean EVERYONE. I never said anything until now, because I felt like it was just me being stupid. But I'm so lonely all the time, and Beckiy removing me from her friends list for seemingly no reason made me... snap.
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Wait...I'm no longer a Vancouver person..
I love you Tessa <3
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And I have no reason to be mad at you, love. <3333
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And i hope you feel better, people can be no fun sometimes.
<333
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I'll be okay. :D Thanks hun.
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