I am confused. i can feel the anxiety comming back, it usually does around school time but at least now i can reconize it. shit was great this summer had a great time with my friends, and i've had a great girlfriend for a while now. I should have learned over these years that good things wont last forever. i've drawn farther from my friends and ( Read more... )

Picture a world where everything is great. Your making money, weeds easy to find, and you have a great girl. The kind of girl you dream about. One who is there for you and cares for you. A girl worth fighting for. Just imagine that perfect picture, then tare it to pieces. My life has just taken a sudden stop to reality. Words cannont explain this ( Read more... )

wow long time, where to begin. how about today. went to breakfast for my 3rd hour final at gus's. showed up around 8 o clock and had frenchtoast. after school got out i dropped Jamie off and went to fellis's. picked fellis and nick and jake up and we drove back to my house and smoked a bowl or 2 after i broek through my laundry room window since ( Read more... )

this sucks. that last entry i had like 3 months ago, fuck all that, thats all bullshit now. im not happy anymore, actually i don't even think i ever was, i think i just thought i was. i never really got over this one girl, and leah kinda distracted me from her. now were broken up and shes all happy with some kid. thats cool tho, doesn't bother me. ( Read more... )

Well hey. Ok heres whats been going on latly. Band camp started monday and it was ok a the first few days, but half way the week i met an amazing girl named Leah. Thursday i took her out to taco bell, it was her birthday, it was awsome. Some lady behind the counter gave her a dollor. Leah wore this hat that had birthday candles and stuff on it, it ( Read more... )

Well once again havn't seen this in a while.....first of all, this is the best song ever made.....seriously, everyone thinks all the music i listen to is gay, but i gaurentee if u download this song it will put a smile on your face. i plan to have this as my wedding song if the girl i fall in love with loves it as much as i do. Its absolutly ( Read more... )

this time it strikes a most innocent girl, jessica martinez. i first became friends with jessica a few weeks before 9th grade, we met at barrymores. once school started i realised she was in band too, i guess i didn't notice at band camp. she was in my 2nd hour band class when i was in 9th grade. i remeber her huggin me with the upmost happiness at ( Read more... )

Well its been a long time since i've written in hurrr. But i guess i say that before every entrie. Anyways i cant' even think of the stuff that has happened since the last time. I got my hair cut, its pretty short, i just got sick of havin long hair. Ill be a hippie with short hair i guess, lol. I finally got my lisence, AGAIN, cause the stupid ( Read more... )

Well its a tuesday night and im sittin hurr watching cops, o yea. tomorow is a half day, can't wait. josh and anthony are supposed to come over and jam tomorow, but you know how that works.....it doesn't. this weekend was fun, me and cruz went to nicks, then to tommy's and hung out over there, then me cruz and tommy went to the taveren for some ( Read more... )

Hey, havn't written in hurr for a long time. Why am i always wrong? I don't know why i have been cursed with this trait. Why is it i never get what i want, but i don't know what i want? Questions like these bother me, keep me up at night wondering, there has to be more to life than this.....But when i think about it, it doesn't seem that there is. ( Read more... )