I think that I will recover, I hope that I will recover. I think it's just too painful to put yourself out there because our success rate has been so poor. We've been fucked over one too many times and we're tired!!! I just don't think I want to believe in true love anymore because if I do then I have to admit that up until this point I haven't ( Read more... )

MT. and I went up to Whistler on Monday, got excessively drunk on other peoples' money. We met 4 Americans (from Alaska) and ended up drinking our faces off with them, letting them cook us dinner and hanging out with them all night ( Read more... )

2 days into my spring break I woke up to the sound of diesel smashing into my pretty little car. My Daddy was the culprit. My poor car was dented and bruised. We took it in today to have it repaired and it's going to be expensive. My poor dad feels terrible and mom's not making it any better...boy was she mad ( Read more... )

So it's official, my heart is broken. CL. must've really done a number on it because apparently it isn't working up to par anymore ( Read more... )

I met a guy on the weekend, but I do not think that I'm ready to be involved with anyone, in fact I know I'm not. Tonight I saw CL at the gym, and as hard as I tried I could not keep from missing him, from yearning for him. My body ached, my heart collapsed. I hate him so much for breaking my heart so bad. It has never hurt this deep. It hurts ( Read more... )

Although I know that this is not something that I have to decide in the near future sometimes I really don't think I want any. I just don't know if I'm willing to give up that much of myself to another really needy human being. I mean really I need a lot of attention and if suddenly my attention to myself as well as my "husband"'s attention is ( Read more... )

I'm feeling good today. I made a website for my class...it turned out pretty good but I have no where to host it yet still working on that ( Read more... )

been feeling really down lately, frustrated with everything, crying at nothing.

have once again decided that I do not want to have kids...maybe I don't even want to get married.

back at my school today, it was uplifting to see my kids again, I really missed them. good to be back even if it's just for a day.

So yesterday I spent my second evening with Mr. Fireman. It went quite well I must say. He seems to be interested and we are quite comfortable around each other which is just peachy! I went out to see him last night, all the way in North Van. We watched some T.V., went in his hot tub and then retired to his room for a bit of hanky panky... ( Read more... )

Well going to work today was a big mistake because my ( Read more... )