idk what it is ne more... i just cant get over somethings, or when i think i have and yeah... it just all comes right back into my head! its like idk, theres other ppl there, but none are the same where i can be as open or say how i feel... i want to tell u, but i dont know if i shoudl... its maybe things are just best left like this.... i just ( Read more... )

wow, i havent written in here all summer! well yeah summer has been great, ive met a lot of new ppl so thats really cool, it just sucks that they are all in college and have to go back really soon! but im so glad its gonna be my senior year it should be lots of fun:) yeah... anthony and i totaly done, its all good though... i think we're still ( Read more... )

Yeah, everything is totally good, not gonna get into the anthony thing, way to confusing, but in the end... im so in love with him and i always will be, i just wish i wouldnt have been a dumb ass and did some of the dumb shit i did... the other night though, things were real good, it was wierd almost though, like i didnt know how to act, but when ( Read more... )

hey, well i havent really written in a while, but things have actually been totally great since spring break... and i just go and do something i dunno if its stupid or not i guess ill have to see... i dont know what i want anymore, i just know i dont want to get hurt again, so we'll see where things go... parents though... ahhh frustrating some ( Read more... )

well yeah everything has been totally good this week, some scary stuff though, but yeah i love everyone... this week will be busy though, i work again today, then tomorrow, then tuesday colorguard, then wed major bio review since final is on thursday, then cg on thursday, then work fri,sat, and sunday! yeah not much fun there.... ahhhh i wanna talk ( Read more... )

Well how i feel sometimes is just totally crazy to me! Idk evven know why i get the way i do, or get emotional. I just thought some things were going to change, but then today it felt like they werent. I know sometimes i gotta give that fricken space, i even read this thing online about it today, and i totally think thats like how he is... i ( Read more... )

Well really a lot has changed since i last wrote ... i went to florida and me and anthony were apart for like 14 days, but it was actually a good break for us, and i think things are starting to look better, im not getting so jelous, and i love him, and yeah i just think evertyings going to be alright, i dont know why i still worry to much, and i ( Read more... )

Yeah, well i dont know... i know its that i miss anthony... but thats not really it... its like he doesnt seem to care, cause he hasnt really called me except the day he got there... i miss him and i need to talk to him, but i cant and ahhh its really frustrating me! I love that boy so much... and yeah im rally sad right now... and everyones just ( Read more... )

wow. i totally couldnt get my livejournal to work, it was rather frustrating! but yeah... not to much to say... except i worked today, and that was actually rather exciting... cept i didnt work with my favorite person... i just dont understand myself and why i always have to have someone there for me... i think thats whats kinda causing a lil " ( Read more... )

Okay, well it has been quite interesting. It's been very up and down again, and im determined to stop having weeks like that. I decided to give anthony space, and im realy going to try and back off. I know i love him, but we are only in highschool, and i shouldnt be this attached to him. I dont try and know everything, but he thinks i do, it ( Read more... )