I smile.
You can not see me.
I can't hold up my head.
Neck breaking.
Mask is too heavy.
But I still smile.

“Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every enjoyment."
~Will Rogers

I don't have anything to say.

Amazing.

BLAH!

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My head is beating and whizzing around.
The thumping accompanying the drone humming is
quite the musical drug hangover.
*sigh*

Apparently I am an emotional-agressive-obsessive-compulsive!
(truly bi-polar and thank the Gods for meds!)

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I won't apologize for who I am and what I stand for...
but I am sorry for you.

"Pain, pain go away.... don't fucking come back!"

I talked to a friend today... who told me that it's not good to be alone.
In my own space, my own head.... I don't have to converse with anyone...
or reckon with them, or plan my day around anyone else. Nobody has to
listen to me ranting or pretend that they understand my pain.
Why is this not good?

No sounds of falsetto voices, gales of contrived laughter, or idle chit chat.
Solitude is comforting... arms wrapping around me, protecting me from the elements.
Manipulated detachment; coddling seclusion.
Withdrawn in my thoughts. Untouchable.

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