Feeling overextended but still truckin! I don't think I do well with change. In order to move forward I have to take a few steps back. I am a dog person and got a tiny crazy little kitten who is extremely spastic. I love the rain but yet I am feeling blue. I want children of my own but the two angels in my life are draining me, digging deep into my ( Read more... )

Life is short.. and so am I. Party like a rock star... which I am not. Take it like a man... got some girly bits here. Don't worry, be happy... I suffer from anxiety. Life's a bitch... well, I just won't fall into that one! Ok, I get it, really I do. I just think people are funny; sick and twisted; regardless- funny.

And here's my bone! Woot! Triumph! Prevail! GOOOOAAAAALLL!

Good possibility that life threw me a bone. Daybreak peaks through my front door now... I don't want to breathe and scare it away! Means to an end? - or just the beginning? Life Feng Shui. And my heart waits for 2 gentle smiles to ease my aching soul, unconditional sweetness & ultimate innocence. I will be patient.

I don't mean to confuse myself by my last LJ Post... I simply meant to express my exasperation for all of life's trials and tribulations. I DO have a lot to be thankful for and I shouldn't be so damn negative. Maybe I'm just soft. Anyways, "Self: I apologize for feeling sorry for myself."

Have you ever felt that every where you look... every direction possible- there are impenetrable walls?! Impossible, impermeable,indestructible,immense,confining pressure. Me against the world. Blocked at every approach. Knocked down... not knowing better than to get back up and try again. Tired & hopeless- scrambling back to my feet. Kicking... ( Read more... )

Hi LJ.... it's been many a moon since I wrote to you. I have missed you. I am still alive (gasp!) and kicking. I have scraped and crawled to get where I am today, I am not blaming anyone but myself ( Read more... )

Sitting in the ER... wondering how many germs are running around here ( Read more... )

Nothing of importance.
Nothing of excitement.
Nothing of significance.
Nothing of love or fine dinning.
Nothing... nothing...nothing.

"He whose face gives no light, shall never become a star."

~William Blake