I look to the past and then to myself.  I am ashamed to say that I feel defeated.  I am still smart, vulgar, well spoken, and intuitive all qualities that I have always adored within myself but I lack the passion that I once had for life, love, music and work.  That's not to say things are going badly between Courtney and I because they aren't.  I ( Read more... )

so i have been reading through some of my most recent entries which span over the last three years as I do not update this thing at all.  But its good to have these entries they remind me of things that I have done and feelings that I have felt that were so powerful that words couldn't accurately describe them.  I have also noticed a maturity ( Read more... )

i had a nightmare last night... id ont know exactly why i am typing about it... but it shook me... horribly... and i dunno something that vivid and horrific is worth remembering ( Read more... )

so its been forever since ive typed in this thing... so i figured i would update everyone a little bit.... so first things first i bought a house not too long ago which is really fun weve been in there since december first and i have loved every mninute of it... i have my own studio and stuff in its own separate room we have a beautiful painting ( Read more... )

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so yeah we have a gig tomorrow and as usual everyone is invited it starts really earlier but we dont go on til like 4:30 or so... its a benefit helping a girl that has some spinal disease that i wont begin to try and spell... her name is riley smith and she is super cute and only 4 yrs old so.... if you want to hear some good ( Read more... )

come with me, my princess, we will travel to the castle together in this magical pumpkin!

now i am happy.............................................................................................

i hate not knowing what to do...  its such a pain in the ass... there are too many fucking options in life... should i stay or should i go... should i pick the shampoo that was tested on monkeys or not... should i wax my back and my ass.... should i................................... *&&^%$%&.....................

so this weekend has been filled with drama excitement sorrow and happiness.... mixed with a little bit of boredom and red bull and you have yourself a hell of a weekend!!!!
so friday was fun at work... cause we convinced erick who is a putss and a half and smells like molded cheese that saul and gustavo, because they were fired and here on work ( Read more... )

so i think life can be defined by certain chapters in your life.... today i have a feeling one of those chapters was closed ( Read more... )