There are dark, ugly places in my heart that I lock away with a key and try to stay far away from but every now and then they find a way to fight to the surface and they ruin everything. They make me feel like I don't know who I am or what I'm doing. They make me feel like there is something deeply wrong that can never be fixed.

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
This weakness I feel I must finally show

maybe to other people it just sounds like I am feeling sorry for myself. and maybe I am ( Read more... )

I just need something to change for the better ( Read more... )

Maybe I should take a class on time management. Because everything is piling up and it shouldn't be and now I am starting to shut down. MY room is a disaster and has been for weeks now because I never have the time or energy to even clean up after myself in here, I'm constantly either at the melting pot, back and forth to steamboat, or trying to ( Read more... )

The past 2 weeks I spent traveling back home. I got to see my sister, but it was too short. I got to see my Tess, but it was FAR too short. I saw a lot of other friends from highschool and the past, but for some reason things felt different. For the first time since I've moved, I felt less like a returning friend and more like a visitor. It felt ( Read more... )

I JUST WANT A WHOLE BUNCH OF DONUTS AND PIZZA!
hurry and finish comin off scabz!!!

For the past 5 hours I have listened to my roommate and her boyfriend have the most painful breakup ever. She has not stopped sobbing hysterically as they try to talk through things in the room next to mine. She is still sobbing hysterically as he is downstairs trying to leave. She is crying and crying and saying "no no no no. please please please ( Read more... )

oh hey almost summer,
I have big plans for you.

Lately I have had such an uneasy feeling ( Read more... )