Last night i cried like never before. I'm so stressed and 
my heart is completely broken. 
I haven't felt this way since joe. My eyes are puffy .

I feel used, disgusted, small, nasty. . .

I don't no what I feel anymore.

I'm the one that always gets fucked over.

when something seems to being going just perfect, it gets fucked up.

It hurts. 
I hurt.

some fotos. uhh i kind of forgot how to lj cut?

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and then again. we didnt hang out. he's dumb.

yeah let me go pleasure myself again.

when I'm with him...I'm the happiest person ever. He makes me forget the bad. & makes me smile.

When I'm not with him...
I cant concentrate. I feel stressed out. I get mad.

but the thing is, is that we don't go out. All he wants is pun pun. =[ & it hurts me. cuz i really feel for him you no?

WHAT THE FUCK! & SOMETIMES HE ( Read more... )

UHHHHH!!! HE FUCKING MAKES ME WANT HIM SOO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! & HE'S A FUCKING JERK. IT FUCKING SUCKS I HAVE TO SEE HIM EVERYDAY IN HIS FINE CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ( Read more... )

i want him to seduce me & fuck me like no other. =[

he's a fucking asshole. & i hate him.

i fucking hate work & ervtyhing else around me right now.

i feel like I'm drowning. . and by the way here are some pictures. well. a recap of the past month.


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i worked basically friday during the day...which turned out to be a disaster cuz all the lil girls kept on comming in the house with wet clothes & shit!~!!....she forgot to pay me and tonight a fucking christmas party with like 348754 rich people giving me their coats to put aways the clanning up the house like if there was no party & food and then ( Read more... )

I came to the conclusion that I want to be a forensic pathologist.

WORKING IN A MORGUE, CUTTING UP DEAD PEOPLE, LOOKING AT THEIR RECTUM, & TAKING OUT THEIR ORGANS (INCLUDING BRAIN) IS PRETTY AWESOME. ALSO KNOWING THAT THE SMELL OF DEAD IS SOOO DISGUSTING.

but yeah....that WHAT I WANNA DO FOR A LIVING! no joke! & I LOVE IT!