I have been less than willing to type anything the last couple of days. I think I said that there was alot going on in my life in the last entry and that still remains the case. Its been a real odd couple of days. I worked on Saturday which was actually not to bad. But, while I was working I called my brother who had left me a voice mail on my ( Read more... )

The last month has been really intense. So much has happened and so much is going to happen that I cant take it all in. I was driving to work this morning and I couldnt help but think of all the good times I have shared with Corinne. From the first time that we met and she came into the lab wearing a T-shirt with a monkey on it. She smiled at ( Read more... )

I am some what of a horticulturist, I enjoy planting things and seeing them grow. About six months ago I was eating lunch in the breakroom at my work. I saw that the "plant lady" was in the building trimming, watering, and caring for the plants that are in the office buildings around our faciltiy. The first time that she walked in she had a hand ( Read more... )

I was wondering about the efficacy of being smote by God. I feel like the last week has been a trial of faith or something. I wonder what the next leg of this journey will bring. I didnt want to call in sick this morning but I didnt have much choice considering I have pink eye on top of trying to kick a cold. Un-fucking-believable. I am pretty ( Read more... )

I went in today with a very lost attitude toward work. I am trying my best to put on a face of someone who really wants to be in this place. I do though. I mean I really like working for Hilmar Cheese. I dont know any place that I WANT to work for more. I enjoy the friends that I have made there albeit some are better then others but, I enjoy ( Read more... )

I feel like such a loser right now. There is nothing positive going on in my life at the moment. I am probably at this point going to be a lab tech until I am fifty. This really sucks. I thought that within the next couple of days I would be hearing something regarding a promotion at work. Today I got the news that my potential promotion is ( Read more... )

So yeah I am sick today. I dont know what I have but, going off of the symptoms I think I may have a flare up of my west nile. I have some of the same back pain that generally is associated with it. Tthe good news is that my sore throat is going away and I am starting to feel better ( Read more... )

I feel really horrible right now. I just sat and listened to Corinne tell me about all the insecurities that she has felt over the last couple of years. I feel like I should have been able to do something about them. It really sucks. She made me feel like I let her down. I was also upset that I had just heard some of her feelings tonight. I ( Read more... )

Under the pressure of death I feel like its my duty to enter something of interest this evening ( Read more... )

I was walking out of my aprtment this morning and my neighbor was stading there talking on the phone. I dont like my neighbor. He tend to be loud and rude when I dont want loudness or rudeness. I watched him talk on the phone and saunter back and forth in the corridor that our apartments and an insurance building create. He just has a shade of ( Read more... )