So yeah I havent typed anything in a while so I thought I would. I have seriously been contemplating what it is that I really want from life. Its been such a sturggle to think about this with real intent. I fluff it off on the drive home or on the way to work but, I dont really think about hard like I have in the past about other things. What ( Read more... )

About a month ago my brothers and I talked about going to a baseball game. We had just been to one not to long ago so the prospect seemed good that we could pick one out with enough time to get time off from work etc. We hadnt talked about it for a while and last week my brother called me and says that my brothers wife's brother had some free ( Read more... )

OK, I wasnt sure what I was going to type when I sat down here so I got a title first and I am going to try and build on that. Where I am at on one hand is very comfortable. Work is really pretty good, the more things seem to change the more that they seem they should have been all along. I really get into the details of my work. I know that in ( Read more... )

So the simple truth of the matter is that I don’t have you to see anymore or to hold and touch. Now, I am left with the same things that I was left with before and the need to express myself manifesting itself through my computer and through my journal. I suppose that it’s a good thing that I cant see you right now because all I really want to do ( Read more... )

This is my response to my friend who emailed me the writing below. Read his first and then mine if you want it all to flow correctly, or do whatever you want. Its a fee country, right ( Read more... )

Yeah so I haven’t been writing for a while and I just don’t really know why. I take that back I know why but I haven’t really been able to get on with it. I have actually been taking that energy out in other ways like painting. I had a dream about three months ago about these pieces that were in my bedroom and all I really knew was that they ( Read more... )

So that guy that’s been all over the news lives in the same town that I live in. He went in and gunned down his four kids and then turned the gun on himself. While discussing this with my parents I made the comment that he (the gunman) got off lucky. Meaning that if he hadn’t turned the gun on himself he would have had to endure 1) the guilt of ( Read more... )

So I am on vacation and I just returned from a long stay on Reno. I think that if I ever get the chance to move there I will. Outside of the typical gambling that EVERYONE does its a really great city. There are so, so, so, many things to do and things to experience. Reno itself is steeped in history as being one of the last stops on the way to ( Read more... )

I think with all of this i can look back and try and have some perspective. One of the positives that will come out of all of this is the amount of focus that I can put into my job now. Having "distractions" :) around I think has led me to slip just a bit. I know I can regain my focus. I was walking out to my car after work today and I noticed ( Read more... )

I normally try and be poetic about the things I am going to say but tonight I dont feel that at all. I am really really down. I was trying to talk with Corinne this evening and I was just not hearing her at all. I think it all started this afternoon when my boss called me in to ask me some questions. She asked me if I was still interested in ( Read more... )