on my way to boston right now to go live my love. i hope that i can honestly make a new beginning and conquer my dreams with this person. i wanna understand the world within because until then i wont know the one without ( Read more... )

last night i went to my friends hotel party aka "fetish party". it was fun there was a decent amount of faces there. all the girls were gonna dress up and make it fun, but one of my friends NIKKY...who is amazing made a very valid point. there was no one at the party to dress up for. just a bunch of really horny guys! lol. well i'm gay and have a ( Read more... )

today i was awoken by my phone ringing and seeing that my job was calling. i decided to put it on quiet and sleep for a couple of more hours. then being responsible i called them back and they called me into work to cover not 1 but two people's shifts since they randomly called out. work was hectic but i got through it and then i came home and ( Read more... )

today i made two very good modern vintage designs in photoshop ( Read more... )

woke up today hoping for a ride to walk but alas i must walk. thats ok though, all the more time to reflect. i can kind of see and i really do realize why i began drinking. i just wanted to feel numb. i wanted to feel lost from the crazy world that was in front of me. life through me one challenge after another and i said ok but im gonna be buzzed ( Read more... )

today was cool. i went to borders and got alot of studying done and then i proceeded to go home and play InFamous which is an awesome game. picture grand theft auto with super powers. then i was feeling a little moody...you know going through those stages of not drinking and the chemicals leaving your body and mind kinda gives you mood swings i ( Read more... )

got back from detox from alcohol and i feel awesome and i know in the future i will feel much better. oh man what an experience i now know that alcoholism is a disease and its just not a phase for some people. but i plan to write regular and keep up with all my hobbies so i always stay busy and don't focus on negative thoughts. its time for a ( Read more... )

so fall has finally come. i can feel the cool breeze coming through my window as i sit and listen to a song i have been trying to find all year. its relaxing. it kinda feels like the calm before the storm. once again i don't know where i'm staying. i wonder if i put myself into these situations. we are all responsible for our own vibrations and ( Read more... )

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