unripe pomegranate in a house full of knives

dried flowers with about equivalent meaning

half shells disposed among stale cigarettes

and the brittle luster of old crinkling bones

when this ends? it will end how it began

no ash, just synastry

of pure fire and void

a place where no water can go

the anchor? we can call it an earthenware shelter

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listening to my new wish we were an eagle record and enjoying the sunlight this afternoon. things are looking up in some ways. i was talking to my closest friend here last night and our binocs for our upcoming whale watching trip had arrived on the same day. it's been dark here for so long. it's like someone just threw the lights on the past ( Read more... )

the starting point here is that i am lost, very lost. phase one was beginning the practice of dialing back into the physical realm, briefly connecting with objects or just the experience of contact in general. sometimes even just experiencing the visual as tangible and real. phase two this morning was remembering sort of the in between realms, ( Read more... )

there was a slight change today. i don't know what came over me but i finally did this chore i've been avoiding and just started sorting out all of my old trinkets and in particular, jewelry. clairsentience-like experience of that endeavor aside, i felt more sorted after, internally. shintoism speculates above me. i dont wear much jewelry now, don' ( Read more... )

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Layered and ineffectively protective alternating layers of emotions generally include: longing, detachment, pining, self-ridicule, deep unmoving love, powerful fear of abandonment, starving sensation, self-compassion, dry mouth, feigned interest in other topics, furious fantasizing habits, self-confidence, fatigue, composure, clawing and scratching ( Read more... )

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You're the only thing I ever want anymore
Live on coffee and flowers
Try not to worry what the weather will be
I figured out what we're missing
I tell you miserable things after you are asleep

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