today is the two year anniversary of me breaking the edge. thats funny cos i doubt anyone can imagine me straightedge ( Read more... )

last night was fucking weird. i didn't sleep. not cos of any chemical, just cos i didn't ( Read more... )

I was gonna go shopping tonight, but i'm fucking lazy and i got new CDs and i just wanted to listen to music and get some stuff done here: like stapling zines, doing washing, getting the burner working and sleeping ( Read more... )

When it rains i just wanna stay in bed warm with the window open and listen. then go out far and get drenched but buy something really cool and get a coffee. then come home cold and drenched and have a warm shower, sit in front of the heater listening to by a thread and play with said gismo ( Read more... )

i get to consumed by things.
i end up spending every i have on them and neglecting everything else.

Today I found my Get Up Kids "Something to Write Home About" CD which has been missing for like a year or more. You may laugh and actually I might laugh too, but this cheesy emo CD fully changed my life, maybe even more than other CD. This music was inspiration and soundtrack to me falling apart and pulling together again. Fucking off hardcore, ( Read more... )

my life is so fast paced that i find it so easy to ignore my problems. i have things and people that make me so happy and fullfilled that i can easily just move on and be positive. Today i spoke to two friends that usually leave me with a smile and they both seemed fucked up. without that security i just ahve to keep thinking and letting my brain ( Read more... )

last night i went to the midnight star. it was ok, but kinda dissapointing. HXH played the worst i've ever seen them, staying at home were ok but they just never seem that comfortable at the midnight star. like me. the place is stale and just makes me sad. the bands all sound terrible cos of the acoustics, it's in a shit boring areas, it's big and ( Read more... )

I feel so much fresher today. Like i feel as spacey as i always do, but not any worse. It's good to be able to think. Last night I went to see Danni's HSC performance for drama and it was funny. Like it was just weird cos the school looks hell pompous like some huge mansion on the water and all this rich looking parents and boatshoe boyfriends and ( Read more... )

I feel so much better now. Yesterday I went completely fruity just because i couldn't sleep. On the weekend i had a few different chemicals and it just kept me up for way too long. Eventually the paranoia and frustration eats you up and you get even more tense and cant sleep. I had nightmares all Monday night and every little noise made me wake. It ( Read more... )