Running thoughts

[trowa494]

A question lately keeps popping up in my head, I've had it before but now it just seems to plague me. The words that I couldn't say to him... the words that were screaming in my heart and head but I couldn't say them... words that could have eased my grandpa's pain but all I could do was look at him and think "This man isn't my grandpa". I loved

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[sailor_moonbeam]

if u love him, he knows ^_^

[mom_2_all]

Your friend is right - he knows and if you tell him now, he'll hear you. That's one of the few joys of death. That person is now with you whenever you need them and you can talk to them at anytime and they'll hear you. Tell him what you want him to know.

[trowa494]

It's not an issue of him knowing that I loved him... but knowing why I acted the way I did.

[prettybiokitty]

f he knows that you love him and if he loves you, then he will forgive you for how you acted... :)

i think that most people who are dying realize that everyone takes death a different way... you took hev 100 right? so i am sure he realized the reason you didn't want to hold his hand and say i love you, wasn't that you didn't love him..., but you didn't want to say a final i love you and that you didn't want to accept that it was the end... and for strong beliefs it is hard to tell the body to do something that doesn't mirror the mind... so your mental denial became a physical denial.... (thats the best i can reason)

<3<3<3 ya
nancy