Merry Christmas Everyone!

I think. I hope so at least. No one has to worry I won't mix anything or be stupid. No babies. Alan adn I are ok now. I stopped being stupid. I thought that I could be all cool about it and see other guys while seeing him so when I went to a party at Troy and Aaron's house on sunday night I thought I could flirt and be happy with Troy and don' ( Read more... )

I can't even explin how I'm feeling right now. I ended up taking one of ashley's antidepressents but for some reason it just made me feel worse. Alan's life revolves around drugs and alcohol. I need attention and he seems not able to give it. Yesterday at the mall he didn't even talk to me didn't give me a hug or a kiss, but he did get stoned ( Read more... )

Hahahaha it may hurt like a sonofabitch but I finally friggen got my period! WOHOO! I really want to thank the people who gave me encouragment, it made me feel a little better. *sigh* Damn I have a crazy life. Last night ashley and I went and saw Two Heded Chan....I love my band. So we weren't doing much because it wasn't very busy, hung out ( Read more... )

I've been a moody bitch all day today...I've had cramps and I've been feeling weird all day. I can only hope and pray to everything holy that it's what I think it is. *crosses fingers*

I don't know, I was with Greg last night and it was fun but it felt wrong. Am I becoming a moral person again? Like wehn I was with him all I could think about was Alan. It felt wrong even though we aren't going out I still felt like I was cheating on him. I tthought that I could have a relationship with Nick but that ended up hurting me more ( Read more... )

So indescribably, unbelievably, incredibly MAD! Seriously right now I want to kick a guy in the balls. I HATE the men in our school...they can't even be classified as MEN! They're nothing more than BOYS! Small and insignificant BOYS! My English teacher decided that we should do a battle of the sexes...there are more boys in my class than girls ( Read more... )

I saw Greg tonight, I haven't seen him in a while, it was nice. he really is a good guy. I think Nick and I are over....*sigh* that makes me sad but that's reality. Rich and I are over because of what happened between Chad and Ashley. Jer hasn't called me ever since that day he last came over...oh well not that big of a loss...he did have a ( Read more... )

I'm not going to worry until there is something that I need to worry about. With the holidays literally just around the corner I can't afford to be more stressed than I already am going to be. I'm going to be myself, do the things I've always done and keep my mind off of it until I know for sure one way or another. Either way I'll deal with it ( Read more... )

I talked to my favorite teacher after school today and told him what's been going on and he made me feel a little better, I'm glad to know that I have someone at school who I can talk to when ashlye isn't around. *sigh* I have to wait so long before I can know anything. Damn the women's cycle!