I can't believe it's been over 5 years that I have written in this journal.  I can't believe it's almost 20 years since my last entry.  How crazy life works and I'm here writing my first post in a very long time.  2020 has been one of the worst years yet with the whole Covid Pandemic and this whole fiasco of an election.

I re-read all of my entries ( Read more... )

It's nice having someone call you to say I miss you. It's nice to receive a hug from someone you cherish more than life itself. I can still remember how I used to date my one and only pinay. You could say she was one of the most beautiful girl I ever been with. I think it's was more of a platonic relationship. We held hands once, maybe a hug ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if growing older is like venturing through stepping stones of life. Different path a person may chooses while other paths are unintentionally crossed... I wonder if I'm currently happy, then again I'm wondering if I'm currently depressed. I'm currently engaged to someone who has been with me through thick and thin via these ( Read more... )

Many people deal with stress, anxiety, sadness and so on with different techniques. As for me I went back to my old habit... *Smoking* Now my head hurts due to nicotine madness... win! Oh I'm so going to regret smoking when I hit the courts for basketball... Lame. O well, it's not like I smoke every day....

I admit, I haven't been back to this journal for a long time. I'm surprised I'm able to remember the password. Sadly I normally return when something happens in my life. I fell victim to online gaming with a nasty streak of buying an abundance of things from the cash shops... I spent a total of $1,300... on a virtual game. I knew chances are ( Read more... )

I'm starting my new job in Irvine pretty soon. A whole new office setting and a great deal of more responsibilities. Honestly if my old company didn't screw me over twice I wouldn't look for another job. But I guess they didn't know that I found out that sudden raise was to keep me around. In the end my co-worker had a higher initial offer and ( Read more... )

Many of one Day.

Do you still remember that one day,
as it slowly stray far far away.
Do you still remember that one day,
the one that you said won't fade

I've seen many of that one day,
still I can't seem to have it stay...

I feel very sleepy right now, but I felt that I need to write something down before I fall asleep. Many times in my postings in the past I would bitch about how unfair life is. Now I'm going to do it again. There are too many what ifs in my life at this moment... what if i took that job in Vista? What if I never broke up with my ex for no ( Read more... )

It's true that you only get to experience life once and I strongly feel that it's unfair because there are times when you need a second chance. Sometimes I wish I could be that guy everyone would admire and look up upon. That guy with the sweetest voice the world ever heard or even the brightest smile to lighten up anyone's day. All I can do is ( Read more... )

I have had a lot of rocky relationships in the past. Broken relationships due to lack of communications and broken promises. I've had my heart torn apart many times, but I kept gluing it back together. I'm currently in love with a girl that has been in my life these past 7 years. There's nothing I wouldn't do to make her happy and to see her ( Read more... )