christmas was good. santa must like the bad kids. i felt bad though getting so much stuff. i didnt really deserve anything that i got, but oh well. there was waaay too much family togetherness shit for me to handle. i ended up going to robbies for most of the day anyway. new years was grand. mark and tim had an awesome party. it was so good to see ( Read more... )

i used to love christmas time when i was a little girl, but now it seems to have lost its fun. it really seems so trivial. my mom had this lame dinner party over the weekend. i dont think i have ever been around so many fake people in my life. the sad part is my mom was one of the biggest fakers there. i wonder if there were no presents involved in ( Read more... )

sometimes i really wonder if it all is worth it? i mean we work so hard at things and put all this time and energy into things and then in a blink of an eye everything is all fucked up. and of course there is no explanation. so why shouldn't we all just drift along, doing the bare minimum and only putting effort into things we want to? you know ( Read more... )

:groan: i'm so full. i don't think i have ever eaten so much food in my whole life. for real. this even beats the time i had to go to three thanksgiving dinners and i ate at all of them. lucky for me i have a fast metabolism or else i would weigh 500 lbs. as nice as it is to have a big family that cares enough to drive hundreds of miles from all ( Read more... )

omg omg omg omg omg omg oooooommmmmgggggg!!!!!! tool was sooooooo goooood. it was the best fuckin show i have ever been to. i have never had such a good time. it was truly amazing. now no other show will ever compare. maybe i should stop going to shows so tool will be the best of them all. nah going to shows is my life, so if i stopped i would have ( Read more... )

i feel so sad today for some reason. i don't even know why. life is going good for the most part, but for some reason i feel all shitty. stupid teenage blahness. i just feel so alone sometimes, like i'm a visitor to myself, like no one knows me. i guess these are valid feeling...i mean know on ever really knows anybody. everyone just walks around ( Read more... )

k ya my night was coolness. i went to see the used all the way in ventura. am i a dedicated fan or what? they were awesome...we left after they played though cause boxcar racers suck. then rick picked us up and we went to taco bell. we did some good eatin there and now we are punking at his casa. whoo hoo...his house is sweet. tomorrow we're ( Read more... )

school can kiss my ass. it was so lame today. thats why i left after snack. jenna and i went with ben to kyles house. thats always fun. we fucked around at his house for a while and then we went to subway. i thought i saw my mom drive by while we were there but it wasn't her. so now i'm at home waiting for hayden to come pick me up so we can go to ( Read more... )

Wow my first journal entry...yippee!!!