Today I started a new lab notebook. It was definitely a defining moment--my very first research notebook. Everyone thought it was exciting--and by everyone I mean the other people in the lab. Hooray for me. And then Valerie came in and told me how she'd been talking to this professor at Michigan State and how they were very impressed with me and ( Read more... )

How out of whack is my life when the vending machine is on my list of "things that make me afraid"? After yet another trip and that same queasy anxious feeling, I realized that something was wrong. You put your money in--praying the machine will take it. You select your choice. And then you stand there for 5 or so seconds that feel like forever ( Read more... )

So, it looks like I'm definitely going to grad school. Still not sure which one, but come Fall 2006 I will be enrolled in someone's program. That sort of makes me feel good. But then I just sort of feel numb. I really need to arrange my flights for the interviews and visits. I'm a little behind and very afraid. What if they meet me and say I just ( Read more... )

someone liked who I was 9 years ago. and now I wonder if I'm still the same person or if I've betrayed a friend (as well as myself) without even knowing it. It's scary and hopeful to think that what I do can mean so much to someone else.

So, I've figured out my problem. I'm too damn easily won over, too easily charmed. If you can not be my friend for years and then after one meeting I've decided I love you all over again, that's just not fair! or is it? I guess I always feel indebted to people who are nice to me, which is weird b/c it's not as though I've been mistreated my entire ( Read more... )

Hands down, this is THE BEST holiday break I have had, EVER! I got home on tuesday before christmas. I went out Friday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday. I was buzzed a few times, drunk at least once, flirting like crazy (so says my friend, but I think it was moderate), and I gave several "free shows". Went downtown to the clubs ( Read more... )

So, how much fun did I have tonight. My glasses are at Mallory's and my phone is in Seigi's jacket pocket. lol...so much fun! Possibly more than I had friday night. I've never had soo many drinks in one night. Wow, Tara, you would be damned proud b/c your roomie can hold her liquour and not puke. Me, spring, and tara have sooo many drinks to dry ( Read more... )

So, last night was fun. And my lovely friend Spring came down all the way from Gainesville just to hang out with lil ole me and some friends. So, after the drinks, she had called Ed on my phone and I really hadn't thought anything of it. It's Ed, right. Now, for some reason she had my phone when we were in the car and i'm thinking that she's just ( Read more... )

I just got home at 5 a.m. after going out and getting drunk with some friends. What do you call 6 shots, slurred speech, some semi-booty dancing, and a stop at the headquarters of the KKK? Too much fun for one night! Going to bed now...hopefully waking up sober...

Nothing like coming home for the holidays and having one of those "damn, why is my family so disfunctional" moments. Makes me feel like I'm 5 again (or 13, or 7 or 19...) I wonder how much my home life environment had to do with why I am the way I am. Or, more specifically, why it affected me in the way it did and had different effects on my ( Read more... )