all i have to say is fuck everyone and everything!!! :)

thank goodness for my hair...i have complete controll over how it looks...atleast i have controll over something...

and this is all that will be said for a long while...

so its double study so...im in the computer lab venting...so last night felt so good...why knows why things happen the way they do...but im glad...to cait-thank you for your stars...they are very much appreciated...my world has healed...to emily-you called it! thank you for believeing in us...i knew i wasn't crazy...it just took some time. To be ( Read more... )

I just can't do it...all I wanna do is tell my heart to shut up...that its wrong...wrong to love you...but I CANT!...i can't because I know it isn't...your wrong...so terribly wrong...I just can't let go...I love you with all my heart Tim...and I'm not gonna stop...I'm not letting go...

its so hard knowing that how i feel doesn't make any difference to you...so hard...i don't know if i can give up on you...even though you continue to do it to me...I'M NOT HER! I WOULDN'T LEAVE YOU HERE IN PAIN! but i guess you can do it to me...

...I never even got to fall asleep with you so that I could wake up next to you...

::sigh::

this is so hard

right now...You and only you...are the only person I truly want to talk to...I want you to call...Right now...I dont WANT to be with anyone else but you...I don't wanna hear their voice...I don't wanna see anyone...I don't want someone to hold me and get me through this...I want YOU to hold me...I wanna hold YOUR hand...I wanna hear YOUR voice...I ( Read more... )

I will never love the same again...with out the fear that my heart will only be toyed with and destroyed over and over again...

Hell Yea Cait...who else got dat on us huh??? who??? LoL yea...im alive...it feels good to be back...dude...its damn weird going for days not talkin to any of my friends...i missed u guys...and i was only gone for 3 days...i love yall...and i love how much of a huge dork i am!!!

.....thirsty???.....
....Mwahahahahaha.....

so being out for over 2 days...when the phone rang...somehow i thought it would be a friend calling to see how im feeling...but the must be busy...im sure tomorrow i will get to school and they will say jeeze...where have you been? and i will say sick with the flu and a fever and im back...im fine...but the one who calls twice a day to see how im ( Read more... )

So Im hopeing that today i feel like this because im sleepy...cuz for some reason i feel sad...not really sad tho...but i dunno...it must be that im tired...but right now i wish i could see my boy and hug him...just have him hold me in my arms...my boy...he never ceases to amaze me...the things he does and says...i just smile when i think about him ( Read more... )