I just wanted to say how much I fucking hate christmas. 

This state of being I am in is uncomfortably numb; in this place I rest alone. I am rotting away into a state of mind--altered, lethargic.  I am hostile and resentful, yet I recognize this as a test of will that shall present my true-self.  I have made it my duty and goal to change my life in all aspects I find unsatisfying.

Often as I do, I am awake when I shouldn't be, thinking about things I shouldn't be.

  This juncture in my life lacks an essence.  My relationships with people suffer from a lack of desire to communicate.  I see corruption and hypocrisy, not to mention features of humanity that are flawed.  People's self-interests tarnish our world with the passing of time.  This has culminated into my current mood; I want nothing more than to find ( Read more... )

I feel sick to my stomach.

Life is crazy. I got a flat tire last night in the pouring rain, but my dad and I changed it today to make it better.  I'm excited to see Korn tomorrow!

I'm really stuck in life right now. I'm stuck at college when I want to be fixing things in my life. I go home every weekend but I just like it at home more than here. Other things are pretty upsetting too, but we won't go into that on here. I don't hate life obviously, but I hate where I'm at in it.

 I'm at my breaking point right about.............. NOW.

My great grandma passed away today. It was her time, God rest her soul.

I feel like I'm trapped here. I need to go away to college already. I don't work well with the people around here anymore. Partially my fault, but I'm not responsible for all of it. I don't like clashing but you seem to be in favor of it.