So this has to do with my last post somewhat. I think the reason i don't feel like wanting to take it further with the certain someone is partly due to quirks this person has, and the reason i stated in the last post. Anyone who knows me knows when it comes to woman i am super picky. Some woman think i am a player, i think i am more looking for ( Read more... )

So the other night i totally had some vivid ass dreams. Usually i have them and i end up forgetting the main topic or main occurrence, but this one i remembered, most likely due to the subject. I tend to have dreams that apply to my life or are necessary for me to maintain a sense of awareness with myself. Usually they have a chance of coming true ( Read more... )

Driving over the Ship Canal bridge at dusk is the ultimate, the view, the lighting, its orgasmic! I told a person i care about off, I have not answered her calls and have been real to myself, its a done deal and not worth the struggle any longer. It was written (maktub). COme to the Mirabeau Room this Friday..holla at me for the guest list! I ( Read more... )

So i hung out with Nina the other night, she is getting cooler, she is getting out of her college girl partying stage, she is going to sign a 2 year contract with the radio station. We were at the Garage and met some cool peeps while bowling, she was so much more open minded then i remember ( Read more... )

I went night swimming last night, i have to say Lake Washington was so fuckin warm it was almost unreal. As warm as you could imagine it being, it was warmer! I was drunk and jumping off the 8ft dock didn't make me get my head straight...I was dizzier then i can remember, but all in all it was good and i am going back tonight!

So i went on this scout for this Star Wars short i am lighting today...the Director of Photography is so out there, its gonna be a hellish 5 days of shooting but i need the money right now ( Read more... )

A small stint in time...a lasting desire in life. Not realizing the essence and the struggle involved, putting aside the loss of emotions for that desire. I count on my finger eachtime but my heart says of something infinite. It isn't if, its when they continue in time, the thought of not remembering is not an option. Stop and think about the ( Read more... )

I like someone finally. I told her too. It's the way she looks at me, the way she smiles at me, it's the way she digs within me and then keeps digging, it's because she has been through what i been through, and she saw that before me. She tugs at my thoughts like a wedgie, and i don't mind one bit! I am not going to be pesimistic about this one ( Read more... )

The Emotion of life, hidden from our thoughts is the essence of what we know . Hidden from what we know are the feelings. Hidden from how we feel is the truth. Let our thoughts reach out to our feelings and be honest with eachother, there will nothing left to hide, nothing left to avoid, nothing left ponder, you will be left with the truth of your ( Read more... )

So i feel like i am a pretty punctual, non flakey type person. If say i am going to do something or call someone i usually do. Why is that right now in my life, basically noone that i know or that i am meeting seems to be returning that (except for Melissa). To me it is more then frustrating, its like the feeling of not mattering almost, and shit ( Read more... )